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first time i've had to myself in a while... i guess it's time that i explain what all i've been up to lately
this summer i'm working for FFPIR, we are a canvassing organization that does fund raising and minor lobbying for non-profits. right now we're working with PennEnvironment and later with the Sierra Club... essentially, they have us going door to door asking people to donate or at least call their reps/get more involved in democracy. it's not a bad job at all... pays my rent in squill and feeds me, i might even be able to put some away for next semester, i guess i'll now for sure when my paychecks start coming in.
the sad thing is it's really making me lose even more faith in the US... i hate the apathy in this country, i hate the ignorance, the selfishness and most off all i hate the way the system works. i hate how everything is measured in money, i hate how not only must enviromental organizations exist in the first place, but i hate how we have to beg for support while corporate interests can fund themselves... i hate how much americans drive and i hate how people pay 9$ for a movie ticket, 100$s/mo for gas and can't spare 15$/yr on a group that actually watches what laws get passed
i hate how i'm sent out without being briefed on the details since 99% of the people i will talk to don't care about them
i hate this complacency and i'm scared about the trends i'm seeing... i'm probably over reacting... but i'm scared of living in a country that condones murder and lies... i know there's probably no government that's better, how america is the 'best'... but i don't believe that perfection is unattainable... frankly, i'm just scared of the world and despite doing what i can, i still feel helpless and alone and afraid
this summer i'm working for FFPIR, we are a canvassing organization that does fund raising and minor lobbying for non-profits. right now we're working with PennEnvironment and later with the Sierra Club... essentially, they have us going door to door asking people to donate or at least call their reps/get more involved in democracy. it's not a bad job at all... pays my rent in squill and feeds me, i might even be able to put some away for next semester, i guess i'll now for sure when my paychecks start coming in.
the sad thing is it's really making me lose even more faith in the US... i hate the apathy in this country, i hate the ignorance, the selfishness and most off all i hate the way the system works. i hate how everything is measured in money, i hate how not only must enviromental organizations exist in the first place, but i hate how we have to beg for support while corporate interests can fund themselves... i hate how much americans drive and i hate how people pay 9$ for a movie ticket, 100$s/mo for gas and can't spare 15$/yr on a group that actually watches what laws get passed
i hate how i'm sent out without being briefed on the details since 99% of the people i will talk to don't care about them
i hate this complacency and i'm scared about the trends i'm seeing... i'm probably over reacting... but i'm scared of living in a country that condones murder and lies... i know there's probably no government that's better, how america is the 'best'... but i don't believe that perfection is unattainable... frankly, i'm just scared of the world and despite doing what i can, i still feel helpless and alone and afraid