suicidal.
me and my bf have been having alot of arguments lately, and it's so hard for me to deal with it because it hurts me so damn much everytime we fight. i don't want to fight with him and if i do fight with him, i wish he'd cheer me up instead of making me feel like shit. it feels as though my heart's being stabbed with a knife and shattered into a million pieces.. and everytime i get really angry with him, i tend to break up and he will usually tell me to fuck off and that just makes me extremely suicidal. it hurts so fucking much that i can't stop crying, i can't stand the pain. i used to be able to hold up better when i'm in a r/ship but i guess i've never been with someone for so long. he's my longest. i'm used to my bf's asking me for 2nd chances but with this bf. every single thing has to go HIS way. even if he's the one that starts the fight, he won't say sorry because he was brought up spoilt and because in his life, he's never wrong. i'm scared that one day, i will lose it and kill myself because he keeps hurting me. i dunno how much longer i can deal with this. i guess it's because we're two different people that doesn't belong together but i can't see myself with anyone else.. i feel like i've had enough of r/ships and i just want this one to work out and be my last.
Let's Start By Correcting Ya Tone
Lower Ya Finger, Don't Be Comin' At Me
With Condescending Demeanor
We Both Know That Ya Dead Wrong
And What Makes It Worse You Don't Even Have The Nerve
To Ever Say That You're Sorry
You're Never Wrong And I'm Never Right And
You Win All The Rounds And Every Fight
That's Why
Can't Stay Another Day When You're Always
Getting Your Way, You Just Keep Getting Your Way
You Just Keep Getting Your Way, Ya Selfish
So I Decided Not To Get In Your Way
It's Time To Do It My Way And That Means
Getting Away From You, Ya Selfish
How Is It That You Can Look At Us And Only See You
You Can Look At One But, Never Would You Ever See Two
You Can Live A Lie And Never Be True
It's So Funny Now, How Clearly I Can See You
You're Never Wrong And I'm Never Right And
You Win All The Rounds And Every Fight
That's Why
Can't Stay Another Day When You're Always
Getting Your Way, You Just Keep Getting Your Way
You Just Keep Getting Your Way, Ya Selfish
So I Decided Not To Get In Your Way
It's Time To Do It My Way And That Means
Getting Away From You, Ya Selfish
No, We Don't Need To Talk
Ain't Nothin' Left To Say
You Got Everythang Ya Want
Go Ahead And have Ya Cake
I Know What's Best For Me
We Go Our Separate Ways
Leaving You With Everything
Even All The Pain
Can't Stay Another Day When You're Always
Getting Your Way, You Just Keep Getting Your Way
You Just Keep Getting Your Way, Ya Selfish
So I Decided Not To Get In Your Way
It's Time To Do It My Way And That Means
Getting Away From You, Ya Selfish