I can't believe it.
Somewhere along the last two months, I just stopped posting. I stopped counting calories too, which has caused me to gain about five pounds. Once I finally got on the scale two days ago and saw this, it sent me right back into Weight Loss Mode, and I've stuck there ever since.
I had to go to a birthday party today for my grandmother in-law at a Chinese buffet. I ate just enough for it to look like I was eating, and then I promptly purged it when I got home. My boyfriend was at work, so I was able to keep puking for as long as it took to get everything up. I haven't had anything else to eat today, so I'm really proud of myself.
I don't know if this makes me look like a bad person or not, but this is my journal, and no one from "real life" reads it, so I'm going to post it anyway. One of my good friends that I thought was really attractive has gained a TON of weight. I used to be jealous of how beautiful and thin she was. She was practically the epitome of what I wanted to look like. Now she's a whale. If you didn't know her, you wouldn't recognize her. That's how fat she is. It almost makes me want to puke every time I look at new pictures she posts on Facebook. And to top it all off, she's now one of those crazy fat people advocates on Tumblr. You know, the thin-priveledge idiots. I have lost all respect for her. It's sad.
I'd like to lose 50 pounds in the next six months, so I am yet again going to start the ABC tomorrow. I'll try to post my progress daily to keep me motivated.
I had to go to a birthday party today for my grandmother in-law at a Chinese buffet. I ate just enough for it to look like I was eating, and then I promptly purged it when I got home. My boyfriend was at work, so I was able to keep puking for as long as it took to get everything up. I haven't had anything else to eat today, so I'm really proud of myself.
I don't know if this makes me look like a bad person or not, but this is my journal, and no one from "real life" reads it, so I'm going to post it anyway. One of my good friends that I thought was really attractive has gained a TON of weight. I used to be jealous of how beautiful and thin she was. She was practically the epitome of what I wanted to look like. Now she's a whale. If you didn't know her, you wouldn't recognize her. That's how fat she is. It almost makes me want to puke every time I look at new pictures she posts on Facebook. And to top it all off, she's now one of those crazy fat people advocates on Tumblr. You know, the thin-priveledge idiots. I have lost all respect for her. It's sad.
I'd like to lose 50 pounds in the next six months, so I am yet again going to start the ABC tomorrow. I'll try to post my progress daily to keep me motivated.