Nervous.
80 pounds lost
110 pounds more to lose
Even though I've been engaged for 8 months, and the wedding isn't until June, I'm starting to freak out getting everything taken care of before then. I feel overwhelmed with all of the details and losing a bunch of weight before the time comes.
I sometimes can't believe I finally found someone that I can tolerate being around long term. He knows that he's the only man I'd ever be attracted to considering my affinity for females, and that makes him feel more secure somehow. He knows about my weight loss and calorie obsession, but he doesn't know that I restrict, binge/purge, chew/spit, etc... I suppose he'll find out one day, and I'll work through it when the time comes.
I feel like I ate too much today:
Half McDonald's medium fries (190)
A fifth McDonald's chicken club (126)
2 sugar cookies (145)
A few bites of spaghetti (200?)
My boyfriend bought the McDonald's, and wanted me to eat with him. I managed to stash bits of it in the empty bag when he wasn't looking.
A friend invited me to her Halloween dinner, and there was spaghetti. Luckily no one was watching too hard, so her dog got most of my plate.
I had to bake cookies for a bake sale, and I couldn't resist. At least I stopped at 2.
It's time for a few thousand crunches and jumping jacks.
110 pounds more to lose
Even though I've been engaged for 8 months, and the wedding isn't until June, I'm starting to freak out getting everything taken care of before then. I feel overwhelmed with all of the details and losing a bunch of weight before the time comes.
I sometimes can't believe I finally found someone that I can tolerate being around long term. He knows that he's the only man I'd ever be attracted to considering my affinity for females, and that makes him feel more secure somehow. He knows about my weight loss and calorie obsession, but he doesn't know that I restrict, binge/purge, chew/spit, etc... I suppose he'll find out one day, and I'll work through it when the time comes.
I feel like I ate too much today:
Half McDonald's medium fries (190)
A fifth McDonald's chicken club (126)
2 sugar cookies (145)
A few bites of spaghetti (200?)
My boyfriend bought the McDonald's, and wanted me to eat with him. I managed to stash bits of it in the empty bag when he wasn't looking.
A friend invited me to her Halloween dinner, and there was spaghetti. Luckily no one was watching too hard, so her dog got most of my plate.
I had to bake cookies for a bake sale, and I couldn't resist. At least I stopped at 2.
It's time for a few thousand crunches and jumping jacks.