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Every single day, I wake up, and something suprises me. I'll look in the mirror and realize i look nothing like i used to. I can't believe how many times I've drifted away from or made friends, but I realize i couldn't live without certain people. i find myself hanging out more and more with selene and kind of "finding myself" again, because for a while, I think i was lost. I don't like feeling awkward around people, so I'm trying to avoid those kind of situations. I really don't like fake people, either, and i don't like when you feel an obligation to do something that you know in your head you really shouldn't have to do. i don't like when people treat you like shit and then expect to be treated perfectly in return. Hypocrisy is the worst.
i guess i just went off on a tangent, but when i say that every day holds a suprise for me, i'm being fairly accurate.
this year especially, i never know what the hell i'll be doing until the second im actually doing it, and the world is so fucking crazy i cant help but be afraid. this whole thing about the russian terrorist crisis scares me to death, and i was reading the newspaper today and i just started crying. i thought the article wasn't that well written and i couldn't help but notice that some of the facts were probably off, but you know that something truly terrible is happening in our world, and most of Marin is oblivious to it. I tried to talk about it yesterday and people said "i dont read the paper, how would i know." and i think thats pretty fucking ignorant. people are dying everyday and families are being torn apart and people like to feel "cool" by saying they don't care enough to be informed. thats not being cool. thats pretty lame, actually.
I really want to do something to help our world and stop some of the terrorism. there has to be a way, but i cant see it yet, and i don't think if we elect bush or if we elect kerry its going to go away. if either of them promise that, they're bullshitting our country. In four years, there's nothing that they can do to change acts reflecting centuries worth of hatred.
bush AND kerry scare the shit out of me. I want john mccain to go in there and kick some ass- we need a more united country and better leadership, and neither of the presidential candidates can unite such a divided populace. I think Bush is probably the more dangerous but predictable choice, and Kerry is more of a wild card. if he can show leadership in the next four years, when our country needs it the most, then i hope he gets elected.
Im done, I guess. that was meant to be an update on how schools going, but it kind of went haywire. if any of you bothered to read it, tell me if you agree or not.
i guess i just went off on a tangent, but when i say that every day holds a suprise for me, i'm being fairly accurate.
this year especially, i never know what the hell i'll be doing until the second im actually doing it, and the world is so fucking crazy i cant help but be afraid. this whole thing about the russian terrorist crisis scares me to death, and i was reading the newspaper today and i just started crying. i thought the article wasn't that well written and i couldn't help but notice that some of the facts were probably off, but you know that something truly terrible is happening in our world, and most of Marin is oblivious to it. I tried to talk about it yesterday and people said "i dont read the paper, how would i know." and i think thats pretty fucking ignorant. people are dying everyday and families are being torn apart and people like to feel "cool" by saying they don't care enough to be informed. thats not being cool. thats pretty lame, actually.
I really want to do something to help our world and stop some of the terrorism. there has to be a way, but i cant see it yet, and i don't think if we elect bush or if we elect kerry its going to go away. if either of them promise that, they're bullshitting our country. In four years, there's nothing that they can do to change acts reflecting centuries worth of hatred.
bush AND kerry scare the shit out of me. I want john mccain to go in there and kick some ass- we need a more united country and better leadership, and neither of the presidential candidates can unite such a divided populace. I think Bush is probably the more dangerous but predictable choice, and Kerry is more of a wild card. if he can show leadership in the next four years, when our country needs it the most, then i hope he gets elected.
Im done, I guess. that was meant to be an update on how schools going, but it kind of went haywire. if any of you bothered to read it, tell me if you agree or not.