*sigh*
Today should have been my first esbat. But I don't know how to celebrate one. -_- Another problem is I don't really have a big room to put out my altar things AND my parents are strict christians. They know that I've always been interested in Wicca as a religion, but they don't accept it and they don't take me serious. Even after all those years I've been out of church my parents try to get me back into it. But it wouldn't have any use.
Either I'm afraid of putting out my things for my altar, my dad would get very angry. *sigh* But I need to stay here because I'm doing my A-levels and I don't earn much money, even If would want to move out... it wouldn't work because of the money.
I hope if I will move out in a few years together with my fiance when I have a job that I can worship the religion as I want to.
Till then I'll have to stay in the broom closet.
I mean, I live near a forest, but near the forest are some flats ... but a woman shouldn't walk there alone in the night, because the people who live there aren't trustworthy. There were some rape incidents around this area. There is also a pond where I could be on my own more or less... but because of some stupid teenagers who where damaging some benches the police is checking the place every evening twice. : / And I don't think that our local police who don't know what paganism is would accept my adoration out there.
Either I'm afraid of putting out my things for my altar, my dad would get very angry. *sigh* But I need to stay here because I'm doing my A-levels and I don't earn much money, even If would want to move out... it wouldn't work because of the money.
I hope if I will move out in a few years together with my fiance when I have a job that I can worship the religion as I want to.
Till then I'll have to stay in the broom closet.
I mean, I live near a forest, but near the forest are some flats ... but a woman shouldn't walk there alone in the night, because the people who live there aren't trustworthy. There were some rape incidents around this area. There is also a pond where I could be on my own more or less... but because of some stupid teenagers who where damaging some benches the police is checking the place every evening twice. : / And I don't think that our local police who don't know what paganism is would accept my adoration out there.