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i didnt smoke a smoke today
i didnt hit a hit today
i didnt wander off checking long-term memory for insurance
i didnt act sober when i could only see two of everything
i didnt lie when i said i was aggrevated
i didnt act so significant today
i didnt even pretend
i didnt even want to look at the mirror today
i didnt take myself so lightly today
i didnt act myself today
i didnt judge everyone else today
i did judge myself today
i did say no and ment it
i did remember what i wanted to (faintly)
i did look everyone in the eyes today
i did get aggrevated...finally
i did realize how normal i am
i did tell the truth
i did look at myself for who i really am today
i did take myself seriously today
i did act how i used to
i did judge myself today
amy, sometimes i dont know what to say or when to say it but know that you are the only thing in my life that is making me realize who i really am and how i need to change it. I dont know how to go about it but one day i will. I'm too stubborn and selfish; you're too good for me. I feel that you would move mountains to see my face for a second when i wouldn't take the time to turn my head and look at myself in the mirror. I hate who i have become. I hate that you have to know me when im like this, especially because you are the way you are (the way i love). It's like i dropped the stone 2 years ago and you are getting the biggest portion of the ripples. But every morning i can wake up knowing that if i start to fall, you will be there by my side for the drop and recovery. If i ever look at you with wet eyes, dont be as surprised as i've conditioned u to be. I'm not as strong as i want you to think i am. I might just need you more than you believe. I cried when i listened to the cd you left at my house that night i almost broke my spine. You could be the one that saves me. Dont let me let go cause if u do, i dont think ill find a way to catch myself again. I love you...
i didnt hit a hit today
i didnt wander off checking long-term memory for insurance
i didnt act sober when i could only see two of everything
i didnt lie when i said i was aggrevated
i didnt act so significant today
i didnt even pretend
i didnt even want to look at the mirror today
i didnt take myself so lightly today
i didnt act myself today
i didnt judge everyone else today
i did judge myself today
i did say no and ment it
i did remember what i wanted to (faintly)
i did look everyone in the eyes today
i did get aggrevated...finally
i did realize how normal i am
i did tell the truth
i did look at myself for who i really am today
i did take myself seriously today
i did act how i used to
i did judge myself today
amy, sometimes i dont know what to say or when to say it but know that you are the only thing in my life that is making me realize who i really am and how i need to change it. I dont know how to go about it but one day i will. I'm too stubborn and selfish; you're too good for me. I feel that you would move mountains to see my face for a second when i wouldn't take the time to turn my head and look at myself in the mirror. I hate who i have become. I hate that you have to know me when im like this, especially because you are the way you are (the way i love). It's like i dropped the stone 2 years ago and you are getting the biggest portion of the ripples. But every morning i can wake up knowing that if i start to fall, you will be there by my side for the drop and recovery. If i ever look at you with wet eyes, dont be as surprised as i've conditioned u to be. I'm not as strong as i want you to think i am. I might just need you more than you believe. I cried when i listened to the cd you left at my house that night i almost broke my spine. You could be the one that saves me. Dont let me let go cause if u do, i dont think ill find a way to catch myself again. I love you...