Perfection!

[landonlove]

Its 12 45...and im sitting here drinking a glass of wine blasting palm dale on my stero. I am so so ..so..soooo happy. Never in my dreams would i think italy could feel like home, never in my WILDEST dreams did i think italy could feel like my home in 3 weeks...but it does. I cant even describe how i feel..just walking home from the bus is an adventure. There are seasons...leaves and wind blowing everywhere..annoying most people but it really just made me smile because it is nothing that i have ever known. The first few weeks are fucking hard and miserable..everyone of my friends agree on that but now i feel like i could live here forever. My schedule got changed around and now everyday i get out at 11 45 my class is sooo fucking tight, the kids are so nice and are really helping me learn the language, im not expected to do shit but i try for the hell of it. The guys are hilarious and we just joke around and laugh the whole class then..i take a long ass bus home, but i dont mind in the least. in fact its my favorite part of the day..driving through the narrow streets with the most ancient intresting things iv ever seen in my life passing me by. Get home..drink..read..rest..watch italian next. Then..i go to dance, which is another reason i think im so fucking happy. For the longest time..i tried to put in the back of my head my regrets about quiting ballet. Dance is my passion..it always will be. Its so natural to me and the fact that i can just pick it up and dance my heart out after ih avent done ballet in like...2 years ..is really amazing and satisfying to me. Its exspecially nice because..i dont have homework..or any school at all basically so i can really concentrate on my dance. I dont know how that will be when i go home...i wish i could start at weside with kim, like..that would be amazing but then theres the reality i need a fucking job, and i really do have to get better grades in school next year. i REALLY dont know whats going to happen when im home but all i know is that i love dancing, i love it sooooooooooo fucking much and i do it everyday here. I come home ..talk with my sister or parents which..treat me like their 2nd daughter, have an italian lesson with my tutor, then we have dinner...can we say amazing???? Then we all watch tv or shower or talk on the phone with friends..or walk around our town even though its pretty chill right now. In many ways its a lot like home..but at the same time it is completly different. Im so alone...yet not alone at all. I feel so indepent and i have never felt so healthy in my life. Like..i cant imagine leaving here, i just...love it more than i ever thought i could. This weekend is going to be amazing...I think iv said everything im feeling..im just ...so happy here. I wish kim..erin..and my mom could just be here with me. Its pretty much like a 6 month vacation..who doesnt love that? Im learning so much everyday..and im really improving my italian. AHHH..life is soooooooooo good
Really do need to stop smoking those cancer sticks though
thanks for reading!