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I feel like I am being forced to go to Hartwick! And it fucking sucks! Like I don't have a choice, I am being pushed from all fucking directions. I should just go and be happy about it, but I can't. I feel like I won't like it and I guess I am a little scared. And my mind was so set on Idaho, but no one wants me to go there, not even the fucking person that got me interested in it. I wish I knew what to do. I can play soccer at Hartwick, I could even play tennis probably if I really wanted because they suck and are desperate.
I didn't even want to apply! My mom made me, and then now she is lecturing me about being indesiseive. Well I am really confused and I wish I could go back to the way things were before when I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I feel like my life is dangling on a really thin string and the string is going to break at any moment and crush me. I don't want high school to end!
I didn't even want to apply! My mom made me, and then now she is lecturing me about being indesiseive. Well I am really confused and I wish I could go back to the way things were before when I knew what I wanted to do with my life. I feel like my life is dangling on a really thin string and the string is going to break at any moment and crush me. I don't want high school to end!