Halloween and all is quiet on the Eastern Front.
Going to see John Kerry today. It's sunny and breezy - the perfect NH welcome for such a cool guy.
I didn't need to go 120 miles north to see the beauty of fall. I needed to wait a few weeks and look out my own back window. The maples in the back yard are amazing. Golden yellow, mallorn even. Today the wind is taking them down off the trees, a real sign of Fall, not just the pretty colors, but the sign that something is ended and something else will soon begin.
I've been listening to the song Broken [the Amy Lee curse continues]. If you read my aways, you know it's true. Very much ringing true to me right now. I've learned that being open is truly a curse. Leave an opening and someone will walk thru eventually, and whatever damage they do, be it intentional or not will be done. Maybe it's time to close the windows, the doors, shut out the light, truly be alone for a while, and rebuild something that's been broken for a very long time. There are other things in life than looking for someone to complete the void; It took me too long to learn that. *EDIT* Damn. That is some whiny nihilist bullshit. Not even I am that depressed.
Things I want to get done before school:
[aka the list of things to keep me busy so I don't become clinically depressed]
-Finish the Mods on my main computer
-Finish Mending Wall
-Clean the basement
-Finish cleaning my room
I think that'll keep me pretty busy.
I didn't need to go 120 miles north to see the beauty of fall. I needed to wait a few weeks and look out my own back window. The maples in the back yard are amazing. Golden yellow, mallorn even. Today the wind is taking them down off the trees, a real sign of Fall, not just the pretty colors, but the sign that something is ended and something else will soon begin.
I've been listening to the song Broken [the Amy Lee curse continues]. If you read my aways, you know it's true. Very much ringing true to me right now. I've learned that being open is truly a curse. Leave an opening and someone will walk thru eventually, and whatever damage they do, be it intentional or not will be done. Maybe it's time to close the windows, the doors, shut out the light, truly be alone for a while, and rebuild something that's been broken for a very long time. There are other things in life than looking for someone to complete the void; It took me too long to learn that. *EDIT* Damn. That is some whiny nihilist bullshit. Not even I am that depressed.
Things I want to get done before school:
[aka the list of things to keep me busy so I don't become clinically depressed]
-Finish the Mods on my main computer
-Finish Mending Wall
-Clean the basement
-Finish cleaning my room
I think that'll keep me pretty busy.