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Sorry to spam, but I'm bursting with indignation and fury and aldknfklnsfd. I'm so fucking mad right now!
Why is it that you boys can talk about whatever the hell you want, as long as it's about bands and music and all that other shit, and yet when I mention one of MY hobbies, you brush it off like it's fucking nothing? Why can't I say anything? Why aren't I allowed to bring up what -I- want to fucking talk about? And it's not just like they just ignore me--no, they feel the need to fucking tell me off, to TELL me how fucking stupid I am. They think it's necessary to let me know that they don't give a goddamn about what -I- have to say.
This would be fine if it was just my friends--although I wouldn't be friends with these people if they had nothing in common with me, would I?--but the fact that my BOYFRIEND only doesn't fucking care when he's around his friends about what I have to say. What the fuck is that?? How come when it's just the two of us, you don't mind listening to me--even are interested in what I have to say--but when we're with your friends, you suddenly don't give a fuck?
Why am I just a fucking annoyance? I'm not even a novelty or a weirdo, I'm just fucking -annoying-. And it's annoying as shit. I have nothing going on in my life right now except work and my hobbies. My hobbies may be different--"weird"--or unconventional at times, but they're what I fucking care about. Do you see me not listening to you when you start talking about music? Do you not see me trying to grasp at what little I can remember of what you've told me before? I'M FUCKING TRYING. And what about you? When we're with your friends, you don't give a fucking shit.
I don't care if your friends need your company, your assistance, because they're going through rough times. -I- have to work all day, and my hobbies are what I want to talk about--what I want to do. Why can't they just care a little? A -little-?! I'm so fucking mindblown by what people can get away with because they're not "overprecautious"; because they're being "normal." Rudeness and meanness shouldn't be fucking normal.
I know I'm boring. Don't fucking remind me.
Why won't people listen to me?! >___<
Why is it that you boys can talk about whatever the hell you want, as long as it's about bands and music and all that other shit, and yet when I mention one of MY hobbies, you brush it off like it's fucking nothing? Why can't I say anything? Why aren't I allowed to bring up what -I- want to fucking talk about? And it's not just like they just ignore me--no, they feel the need to fucking tell me off, to TELL me how fucking stupid I am. They think it's necessary to let me know that they don't give a goddamn about what -I- have to say.
This would be fine if it was just my friends--although I wouldn't be friends with these people if they had nothing in common with me, would I?--but the fact that my BOYFRIEND only doesn't fucking care when he's around his friends about what I have to say. What the fuck is that?? How come when it's just the two of us, you don't mind listening to me--even are interested in what I have to say--but when we're with your friends, you suddenly don't give a fuck?
Why am I just a fucking annoyance? I'm not even a novelty or a weirdo, I'm just fucking -annoying-. And it's annoying as shit. I have nothing going on in my life right now except work and my hobbies. My hobbies may be different--"weird"--or unconventional at times, but they're what I fucking care about. Do you see me not listening to you when you start talking about music? Do you not see me trying to grasp at what little I can remember of what you've told me before? I'M FUCKING TRYING. And what about you? When we're with your friends, you don't give a fucking shit.
I don't care if your friends need your company, your assistance, because they're going through rough times. -I- have to work all day, and my hobbies are what I want to talk about--what I want to do. Why can't they just care a little? A -little-?! I'm so fucking mindblown by what people can get away with because they're not "overprecautious"; because they're being "normal." Rudeness and meanness shouldn't be fucking normal.
I know I'm boring. Don't fucking remind me.
Why won't people listen to me?! >___<