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Oni is coming to visit!!!! I'm excited, but I'm also a little nervous. Oni and I haven't spent a lot of one on one time in person. I'm not really sure how this weekend is going to go. Hopefully, it'll just be a lot of fun. I could use a hug, and he is a huggy creature, also I could use some friend time. Kat still hasn't called me back. Everyone I know is far away right now. I need to visit Lander and spend a little time. I miss the big kitten. He's just so busy these days, it's hard to get a hold of him.
The Chris matter is still bothering me. I should be able to get over him, move on like he wants me to, and just let the man be. I should probably take my own advice in this matter. Tell him once, tell him well, and then leave it up to him. It's harder to do than it is to say. I tried to call him last night and do it, but he wasn't home, the day before that I tried, and he was busy. I'd really like to do this before Oni comes to visit so he and I can talk about it. I kind of want someone to be here to help me pick up the pieces afterward. Oh, well. It'll turn out the way it needs to, and if I have to call Keely and cry to her, because I'm alone and picking up my own pieces, I'm sure she'll forgive me. I just need to know if I meant anything to him, or if he was just doing what he thought he needed to do. I wish there was an easier way to deal with this . . . .
The Chris matter is still bothering me. I should be able to get over him, move on like he wants me to, and just let the man be. I should probably take my own advice in this matter. Tell him once, tell him well, and then leave it up to him. It's harder to do than it is to say. I tried to call him last night and do it, but he wasn't home, the day before that I tried, and he was busy. I'd really like to do this before Oni comes to visit so he and I can talk about it. I kind of want someone to be here to help me pick up the pieces afterward. Oh, well. It'll turn out the way it needs to, and if I have to call Keely and cry to her, because I'm alone and picking up my own pieces, I'm sure she'll forgive me. I just need to know if I meant anything to him, or if he was just doing what he thought he needed to do. I wish there was an easier way to deal with this . . . .