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Ever have someone fire you with tears in his eyes? Cos I just did. The guy didn't want to do it. He wouldn't have done it. But the fella in charge was quite simply not man enough to do it himself. Instead, he got one of my friends to do it. So he wouldn't have to get his hands dirty. That, I do not respect. I've lost all respect I've ever had for this arrogant shitsack who can't even do his own job proper. I lost all respect for him long before he lied to me and I knew he was lying to me. He is not a man. He doesn't have the balls. He is nothing more than a dirty cockroach and I respect him even less than the greasy, fat ass, white trash piece of shit who ran the dirty Mexican joint that I waited tables at when I was 16. Goddamn, you know, I know I messed up and I'm willing to own up to it. If I let anyone down, hell fuck it- I know I let some people down and I owe them. I never wanted to hurt my friends. When I saw this fella wiping tears from his eyes when he told me that I'd been fired, I wanted to put my arm around him or something. It shouldn't have been on him. It was my mess up. Not his. And you know what? The guy who decided to fire me is not innocent himself. He is a liar. He discriminates. Yeh. It's borderline racist and if I wanted to, I could bring that up. But he's not worth the five cent love that the company spent on me. Fuck the bastard. Shit, what the hell should I do? I said my goodbyes to some of the people that I've come to love, but I still feel like I should do more. There are people who suffered with me, through the bad shifts. People who stood up for me when things got rough. People who covered for me when I fucked up. I let them down. I really did. But there was no way around it, because I was let down so many times and it's all going around in circles, everyobdy hurting each other for no reason at all. Fuck, I need to go back and settle things. Not with the dirty cockroach. He ain't worth my time. I need to settle things in person. With Franco. And Artan. And everyone who fucking goddamn stood up for me when I didn't know I needed them to.