Emotionally out of whack
First thing I would like to say is that it really isn't okay when someone in your family dies on thursday / friday and no one bothers to tell you until sunday night. On that note, I found out last night that my great aunt Ruth died sunday night. She was the wife of my grandfather's brother on my mom's side....which sounds kind of distant, but in reality she was always kind of a second grandmother to me. The sweetest old lady that you would ever hope to meet. I am kinda feeling shitty because I had not been making time to go see her like I should have. I knew she was not doing great or anything but I also didn't realize that she was that sick, I know that is no excuse for me not going to see her more. Kind of one of those life lessons that I needed to learn I guess :( This is mixed in with some very good news in regards to my sound stuff that pretty much no one here would get the specifics of but suffice it to say that my sound system might be expanding greatly with very little investment by me. When I say expanding I am pretty sure when all is said and done I could do stuff like 2000 people outside venues with my own gear. so....this is why I am really screwed up right now. So much good stuff build up and then HUGE let down / bad news at the end of the weekend. I think I am kind of on emotional overload and not really sure what to feel right now....anyways that is me. There are reasons that I posted it here rather than facebook so you should all feel very priviledged that you get to see my sucky and happy news lol. Anyways I am off for now.