another week
soooo it has been another week. So what have i done u ask? i have wrote an essay finish my online course and took my test twice bc it FUCKED up the first time. i have hanged out with some friends and be bored out of my mind. I went to my michael buble concert last night and HAD a blast. it was a great show of course.
Right now i am starting to feel a little depressed bc i will be leaving to head back to raleigh tomorrow. I am glad to be going back but part of me wishs i could have hanged out with my friends more. Then there is the whole geoff deal...ughhhhh i am so damn confused it is not even funny. I REALLY care for him, like i really want a relationship and something to work out! but part of me is afraid to risk something. I was on the phone with him 2 nights ago for like almost 2 hrs talking about the most random stuff. Like it was not even me talking, like he did a lot of the talking, which i LOVED! He can hold his oven conversations and such. I keep day dreaming about things happening to us....like i REALLY want something to happen badly. He is just one AMAZING guy and I don't understand why girls do the meanest things to him. He is really great. I am going to the movies with him tonight and i really want a kiss out of it in the end...I know i am asking a lot for barely getting no hug out of him the other day. we talk like EVERY day about random stuff and just what is going on. I really like him, i dont know how but he has grown on me and i feel i have grown on him but yeah. if nothing happens tonight (he is making the moves! not me!) i am going to say fuck it and see what happens but not letting it hold me back. u know? ughhhh why do i take myself down this path...ughhh so crazy i tell ya
Right now i am starting to feel a little depressed bc i will be leaving to head back to raleigh tomorrow. I am glad to be going back but part of me wishs i could have hanged out with my friends more. Then there is the whole geoff deal...ughhhhh i am so damn confused it is not even funny. I REALLY care for him, like i really want a relationship and something to work out! but part of me is afraid to risk something. I was on the phone with him 2 nights ago for like almost 2 hrs talking about the most random stuff. Like it was not even me talking, like he did a lot of the talking, which i LOVED! He can hold his oven conversations and such. I keep day dreaming about things happening to us....like i REALLY want something to happen badly. He is just one AMAZING guy and I don't understand why girls do the meanest things to him. He is really great. I am going to the movies with him tonight and i really want a kiss out of it in the end...I know i am asking a lot for barely getting no hug out of him the other day. we talk like EVERY day about random stuff and just what is going on. I really like him, i dont know how but he has grown on me and i feel i have grown on him but yeah. if nothing happens tonight (he is making the moves! not me!) i am going to say fuck it and see what happens but not letting it hold me back. u know? ughhhh why do i take myself down this path...ughhh so crazy i tell ya