WTF is wrong with me

[lancecappy]

OK, so Geoff said something like new years eve about doing something mon night. Well tonight comes around and heard nothing and i am like ok..so like 745ish i call him up and ask about doing something...he comes over to my end of teh county and i meet up at the mall by my house. So we walk the mall, and then drove around town to see what else we could find bc the mall closed. He had no money and i offered to pay to see a movie, but he was like no no. So i was like wahtever. So we go to walmart and it is teh 24 hr one and he did not know about it. So we are roaming and we end up in the kids area pressing all the buttons (u got to do that!). well he is looking at something and i look down the isle and all of a sudden i see someone walk pass and i am like why does that look like ryan! As far as i knew he was coming from ohio today or tomorrow (sometime soon). Well, all of a sudden teh person comes back adn of course it is RYAN! i am like holy shit and i am here with GEOFF! U got to be kidding me. He was like hey and apparently he got in yesterday adn was around town and such. He was at walmart with tyler looking at golf clubs. I dont know if he heard my voice and looked for me or what, bc tyler was not with him at the time. (asking him about that later). So I say this is geoff and said this is ryan. So i talk with ryan some. Then ryan goes and i hear ryans voice again later (i know it is his) and i just like OMG! so geoff and i roaming more and then leave and drive and end up back at the parking lot of the movie threatre and sit for HOURS!!! and talked, like we left the parking lot at 3am and we talked the WHOLE TIME! it was nice (no kiss or hug). BUt on the drive home and everything i am just freaking out i saw ryan WITH GEOFF! I feel like i have cheated on ryan and i am like TAKE ME BACK AND I DID NOT MEAN IT! I am like wtf is wrong with me. I want to see ryan now tomorrow or something. So who knows. I am like freaking out seriously still.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!