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[lancecappy]

i am goin insane in the membrane. Yeahhhh, i am going back to that I need to get a man deally. Like i feel so bored, like i am not, but i want to go out w/a guy and just chill and cuddle and have a make out session even. Like i want to call bryan up at times, how freaking sad is that. it is beyond sad. then i want to see geoff (eyelinear kid) and chill with him when i am home, he is a cutie. Then i am like RYAN! i want to cuddle and make out with him the rest of my life. gosh i swear not one week goes by i dont think about that night and just the whole thing. I just picture it all in my head, the last thing on the tv, what was put into the stereo, that look he gave, i feel the lips, i feel that hair, i feel that skin, i just feel and get all those emotions all over again. I remember it all and i will never forget at this rate. I picture and relive that moment in my life as if it was a movie i hit play, rewind and play again. it is just crazy i tell u. I want someone so badly and i know i am hunting for it and i need to stop hunting for it and let it come to me, but when u see other people in love, listen to love songs, see lovie movies, other kissing and u r just want to throw urself off a bridge or just say i want that and i want that now. U dont care what pain u go through to get what u want, but u feel u want to go through that pain, bc u get those feelings u love and want on a daily basic. THis is what i have been thinking lately for some odd reason. I really love to love someone.

exam time is here, already took photography at 9am...rest of schedule
12-3 9am-12 2D design
12-5 1-4pm Work
12-6 1-4pm Work
12-7 1030 chaucer lines
12-8 9am-12 Public Speaking
12-9 6pm-9 English, w/english paper
12-9 Foreign language paper due

yeah that is my schedule then drive home 12-10...fun times