good times
well today was a long and nothing do day. Added money to cam card, went by school store adn found nothing i wanted. Then i just went in terrins room and helped her out and chilld and did stuff. it was fun. Went to lunch and then came back and chilld more and then dinner. So yeah, it has been interesting. I watched smallville and wildfire w/roomie. the episode tonight w/smallville was the last episode i watched with ryan :( i was sad! I was like ahhhhhhhh i miss ryan a ton now! I want to see ryan like anything and just be with him and chill. Then i want to drive out to elon to see bryan. I am like AHHH crazyness. So yeah, it is nuts :( i want loved by a guy again. NOT by brian though. NO NO NO NO! i doubt brian and i will be friends again. who knows. Right now i miss the sound of ryans voice and just him in general. The looks he gives and the way he says things and the way we read each other minds with out saying a word. It is a secret understanding. *beats head* i do miss him. I truely do. grrrrr. So yeah. I had saw this one smallville episode and there was a quote in it i just was like aHHH so true. this was before i told ryan how i felt i saw this.
I want to let you in on a secret, I'm not who you think I am, in fact, my disguise is so thin, I'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. I'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes I want to rip off this facade like I did at the spring formal, but I can't because you'll get scared and run away again. So I decided it's better to live with a lie than expose my true feelings... my dad told me there are two types of girls: the ones you grow out of, and the ones you grow into. I really hope I'm the latter. I may not be the one you love today, but I'll let you go for now, hoping that one day you'll fly back to me because I think you're worth the wait.
yeah so true! i was like WOW there. Right now my thing is 'i miss those feeling, moments and want more of those memories' made that on my own. All about ryan. I wish he could see that i truely believe it could work, i wish i could convience him more. I fee like if i go to tech and show him i want to be with him, he can turn around. grrrrrrrrrr. Right now my head just keeps spinning with ryan and then bryan comes in every so often. Right now the wallpaper is a pic of ryan i took in photography senior yr :( That pic is all him, his feelings and who he is.
I want to let you in on a secret, I'm not who you think I am, in fact, my disguise is so thin, I'm surprised you haven't seen right through me. I'm the girl of your dreams masquerading as your best friend. Sometimes I want to rip off this facade like I did at the spring formal, but I can't because you'll get scared and run away again. So I decided it's better to live with a lie than expose my true feelings... my dad told me there are two types of girls: the ones you grow out of, and the ones you grow into. I really hope I'm the latter. I may not be the one you love today, but I'll let you go for now, hoping that one day you'll fly back to me because I think you're worth the wait.
yeah so true! i was like WOW there. Right now my thing is 'i miss those feeling, moments and want more of those memories' made that on my own. All about ryan. I wish he could see that i truely believe it could work, i wish i could convience him more. I fee like if i go to tech and show him i want to be with him, he can turn around. grrrrrrrrrr. Right now my head just keeps spinning with ryan and then bryan comes in every so often. Right now the wallpaper is a pic of ryan i took in photography senior yr :( That pic is all him, his feelings and who he is.