Prompted by hate

[lance666]

Been a while since I've posted, so here it is. Prompted by hate. Not quite rage. Already the hate is gone of course, so I want to deny it's ever having existed, but I won't. It was indeed that instinctual (I of course want to say stupid) emotional response to someone being a jackass and me just holding it in. I don't have a plan to let it out yet either. I'm gonna go ahead and say that I'm not gonna go on some murder-suicide rampage because I'd probably get put in jail for writing it in a journal. Which is pretty fucked up really. Then again it's an easily avoided stupid situation - don't write stuff like that in an online journal. Write it in an actual journal so they can all look at it after the fact and "hmm" and "aah" and be the wiser, however late. No I don't have a personal journal containing plans for a murder-suicide rampage. I also have a brain but it's as fleeting as my train of thought, which makes sense because that's really what a brain is about. It's quite annoying when every few words the cursor jumps around as per the laptop pad. Well there's a little tangent, and now I'm just gonna keep typing so nobody else can get on the computer cause fuck these fuckers. Actually that'd be kind of interesting. Well, time-consuming at least, to let the cursor jump around and just keep typing. lol - the uniform thing. Hays, "what are you going ta tell them?" That I don't have any of it. Richmond, "As soon as the PX opens you're buying all of it." *walks away* Good old ignoring problems until they go away. Well, pass over leaving some residual nastiness but at this point what's the difference? Good old making it bad enough that there's no point in caring (looks like car-ing) anymore, if there even was in the first place. Which I obviously thought there wasn't. When you lack conviction sometimes you have to burn the bridges behind you so you can't turn back, and then burn the field you're standing in so you have to go forward. FUCKING LAPTOPS. They need a little slide-over cover. Or far better yet - a fucking OFF button. I like manson's remixes of songs more than the originals generally. Fucking distractions. Back to the point - light everything on fire and either move or burn to death, both of which being superior to stagnancy. Then again there's always just digging a hole in the burning field and slowly suffocating while the world you know goes up in flames. Depeche Mode is a freaking joke. The music video for "It's no good." wow. And the mexican is here getting all into it. While his marriage falls apart Ha. Suddenly I wish I had an angry icon FUCK! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!! Read ALL of them. FUCK! Cursor. Ahem. ...because the empty circle thing whenever I get all emo is getting old. Maybe I don't want it to be an empty circle. But I do out of habit and I guess I've actually got a successful habit. BWAAAARRRGHGH!! Fighting. Freaking out. I'm gonna go ask a ninja. Fuck you all. I have more conviction. If I talk more will it look like all talk? Because that's a good thing. Okay I'm probably about to type too much so uh, bye. Ballak's a good guy. Along with a few others. But in general fuck you all.
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it's fun.

I just need to expend. ha. ekspend. I'm gonna win the life. Just like Weenky won the internet.