Spirituality
I was talking with my councilor today, and I was saying how I was feeling some cognitive dissonance over religion. I feel quite religious, but at the same time, religious people always make me feel uneasy.
I described how I’ve been getting into eastern philosophy, trying different Buddhist mediations and reading the Tao Te Ching; from the Christian side, I mentioned how I’ve been reading Merton and listening to Gregorian chants, in addition to going to church. I enjoy religion.
At the same time, I feel profoundly uncomfortable whenever God or anything like that is mentioned in a sentence-let alone a prayer-and I still feel somewhat out of place in church when all the people say their hymns of praise. It makes me feel like I’m in a zombie cult sometimes. Other times, I feel the regret and worry wash away. Then, religion is all scared from history, a bitter and divisive entity.
I asked, and she said that I’m spiritual, not religious. It’s amazing how a simple word change can clear everything up.
QOD: When I do good, I feel good; when I do bad, I feel bad. That's my religion.
I described how I’ve been getting into eastern philosophy, trying different Buddhist mediations and reading the Tao Te Ching; from the Christian side, I mentioned how I’ve been reading Merton and listening to Gregorian chants, in addition to going to church. I enjoy religion.
At the same time, I feel profoundly uncomfortable whenever God or anything like that is mentioned in a sentence-let alone a prayer-and I still feel somewhat out of place in church when all the people say their hymns of praise. It makes me feel like I’m in a zombie cult sometimes. Other times, I feel the regret and worry wash away. Then, religion is all scared from history, a bitter and divisive entity.
I asked, and she said that I’m spiritual, not religious. It’s amazing how a simple word change can clear everything up.
QOD: When I do good, I feel good; when I do bad, I feel bad. That's my religion.