it hurts
I'm exploding inside. He does this to me. So I'm coming back to live journal. after a while of random writing I think I could use this in my life again. It's a world away from many people ....when i would update frequently years ago...i remember how amazing it felt to write write write and get it all out....I have so much inside of me right now...i could write for days.
I'm going crazy as far as the Eddie thing goes. I still have these trust issues i have to get over and i have all of the insecurites as a result of what happened with our first attempt that carried over. Why? Why do i let this happen? What IS the worst that could happen...worst case scenario, He breaks my heart again. I would live. I need to get OVER it and relax a little bit. I know he can sense my uncomfortablness sometimes.
Onto other things...i'm excited because i am officially accepted into the communications design program. I hope this works for me. I hope that i keep my head straight and finish school.
My two monster nephews are growing up. sniff.
jes....Faustino turned 7 and octavio turned 1.
Crrrassee
I'm going crazy as far as the Eddie thing goes. I still have these trust issues i have to get over and i have all of the insecurites as a result of what happened with our first attempt that carried over. Why? Why do i let this happen? What IS the worst that could happen...worst case scenario, He breaks my heart again. I would live. I need to get OVER it and relax a little bit. I know he can sense my uncomfortablness sometimes.
Onto other things...i'm excited because i am officially accepted into the communications design program. I hope this works for me. I hope that i keep my head straight and finish school.
My two monster nephews are growing up. sniff.
jes....Faustino turned 7 and octavio turned 1.
Crrrassee