Thanksgiving
I'm thankful that I'm alive. That I'm alive without a fatal disease. That I survived a surgery well, and that 2 days out of it, I am walking around my house, making my food, got to bathe, am eating, am not taking strong pain meds AT ALL, and that I feel well enough to be bored, even.
As that is what has dominated my life and my waking thoughts for the last few months, that is what I am most grateful for. Anything else, right now, would take some thought. Sounds selfish, but I'm allowed a little bit right now, I think. I am spending the day alone, but you know? I usually do. Just, I can't go out and find a bar to have a drink at tonight, as usual. That bothers me more than anything, sadly.
As that is what has dominated my life and my waking thoughts for the last few months, that is what I am most grateful for. Anything else, right now, would take some thought. Sounds selfish, but I'm allowed a little bit right now, I think. I am spending the day alone, but you know? I usually do. Just, I can't go out and find a bar to have a drink at tonight, as usual. That bothers me more than anything, sadly.