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I hate Chrismas, it reminds me of when Bambi goes to the meadow for the first time.
Ouch! Anyway it's here and there's nothing i can do about it so i might as well just get on with it and try to have a good time at least. I think we're gunna go buy a tree tonight, first time in six years, it's gunna be wierd, but i guess it's about time we started making an effort again, i guess it's time to stop licking our wounds and just let them heal. But it'll be wierd.
I want you to know that I care and I miss you.
As for what I'm gunna do when i leave school, I still have no idea, no direction, and it bothers me less and less everytime someone mentions it. I think i've got too much baggage to jump into something i'm not sure about. So i'm gunna take my time, think about stuff some more, maybe take a yoga class or turn Buddhist or something, jokes jokes. I can't sort my life out without sorting myself out first, and lemmetellu myself is far from 'sorted'. So, asshole, that's what i plan to do in May 2005. HAPPY??? In future keep your nosey little opinions to yourself, i don't want to hear them, like Lora said in her journal the other day, you don't see me as a whole you only see the pieces i let you see, the pieces i choose to show you. Don't make the mistake of thinking you know me because you have no idea.
My life is my own to do with it, what i please, it's none of your concern!
And another thing, any arguements we have are between me and you, no one else wants to know about them! No one else cares! So it's pointless telling them! And yes i'm really REALLY fucked off at you! Grow up!