sick
I was sitting in the living room alone watching Chronicle when some strange feeling crept up my body. I don't remember where it started but it gave me goosebumps and made me feel a little sick. It brought about some bizarre mindset that reminded me of when I was wacked out rollin' or when through isolation when I was 16. I felt distant from myself like I had slipped into some vast awareness of eternal shame because I was not some ideal being. Like I was tapping into that dark repressed hole that ultimately governs my behavior at a fundamental level.
I immediately knew that most of it was a deprivation or reaction to something. Mostly fatigue and nourishment. Funny how time and intelligence has a way of allowing ourselves to identify a feeling. It does wonders to remove that helpless sense of confusion and fear. The vague sense is still there, but I think I'm going to listen to my body and go to bed.
The mind is a slave to body. The body is a selfish unconscious thing, it only wants for itself. If you give it what it wants, it will rewards you a thousand times over. If you neglect it, it will steal your sanity and bliss.
I immediately knew that most of it was a deprivation or reaction to something. Mostly fatigue and nourishment. Funny how time and intelligence has a way of allowing ourselves to identify a feeling. It does wonders to remove that helpless sense of confusion and fear. The vague sense is still there, but I think I'm going to listen to my body and go to bed.
The mind is a slave to body. The body is a selfish unconscious thing, it only wants for itself. If you give it what it wants, it will rewards you a thousand times over. If you neglect it, it will steal your sanity and bliss.