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It comes in waves, this feeling of honesty. Like the walls are down for a little while and these thoughts are mine and not some idealistic nonsense that I feel justified in believing or implanted through the axioms of my society.
I think, deep down, I just want it all to burn. The world around me is disheartening and trivial. When watching the interactions between people I feel no connection with them and none between each other. This may be because of where I work. But, I can already tell that I don't want to be like them save for their working knowledge and organizational skills. All I hear is chatter with very little sustenance. I feel like it's affecting my home life.
Through this single thought, that feeling of honesty has faded. All that's left is a feeling of apprehension and resistance.
Also, many people my age are shallow as fuck. Especially the women. I would have never thought so many people could be so full of shit. The awful part is I am too...maybe that's why I wanna see it fall apart. Maybe I'm naive to believe that I would thrive in chaos.
I think, deep down, I just want it all to burn. The world around me is disheartening and trivial. When watching the interactions between people I feel no connection with them and none between each other. This may be because of where I work. But, I can already tell that I don't want to be like them save for their working knowledge and organizational skills. All I hear is chatter with very little sustenance. I feel like it's affecting my home life.
Through this single thought, that feeling of honesty has faded. All that's left is a feeling of apprehension and resistance.
Also, many people my age are shallow as fuck. Especially the women. I would have never thought so many people could be so full of shit. The awful part is I am too...maybe that's why I wanna see it fall apart. Maybe I'm naive to believe that I would thrive in chaos.