dreams
I must be thinking too much of my work, or watching too much grey's anatomy. I actually had this weird dream which thinking back, seems rather scary.
I was at camp, sleeping when suddenly someone shouting for 'medic'. woke up with a shock and went out and this guy (i dun know him, maybe a reservist) came and told me that someone collapsed and want us to go there. i dun really remember what happened next, but soon i was beside a casualty with my kit bag. he was like unconscious and i did remember i checked ABC and there is no breathing no pulse. I remembered me doing CPR on him and don't know why, i actually did mouth to mouth resuscitation instead of using the air viva. then i remember putting on the AED pad and starting the machine "Apply defibrilation pads to patient's bare chest, connect cables" and then shouting "clear" and shocking him on the spot. This part on using the AED was so clearly in my mind even after i woke up. then shortly after, someone came to me and kept shouting at me "intubate him! intubate him!" i was like WTF! i did not learn how to intubate someone before. i only know how to secure the tube. then this guy just stuff the laryngoscope and the ETT into my hands and kept forcing me to do it. i know a bit on intubation, but freaking hell, how am i supposed to do it. i then woke up at this point of time, breaking out in cold sweat. the dream just seem so damm real and i am like sweating all over, like as if i was on the scene. what was my mind thinking of ?trying to be a hero while saving life?? this had made me quite uneasy the whole morning. btw, while thiking about the dream later on, i realise i did forget something, inserting airway guerdal. did i do tat in my dream?? whatever, it was absolutely freaky. really, i should cut down on grey's anatomy. i think that is the main cause of this mind disorder.
on the topic of dreams, i did have very very weird dreams before. Have you ever had a dream where you woke up and yet you are still in the dream world?? i had something like that some time back. i could be waking up on my bed in my dream, and walking around the house feeling that something is not right, and then waking up again, this time in reality. I had dreams where i actually jumped off a building and then just jerk up. I had dreams of friends whom i have not been in contact for a long long time ( i did not even think about them in day time). I also had dreams that seems to have the wrong people in the wrong time. like studying in jc with my pri sch classmates. my pri sch teacher teaching me in secondary school. my np mates are with me together in NS. ever had this experience of flipping open your a levels papers and the qns asking you about questions on first aid? ever sat through a bio paper at a levels when i didn't event the subject in jc. ever had someone whom you are not close to sitting down and talking to you about stuff which you would not even share with your best friend? ever had dreams where you can actually do things that you did not learn before? i dreamt of driving a car, riding a bike and flying a plane before. i think that must be because i read about it and i saw it on tv. sometimes, i could even differentiate that ' i am in a dream' and i actually start to do funny, strange, sick, freaky things which i shall not say here. i was thinking, it would be scary if i really can't tell the diffenece between the real life and the dream world. i may end up killing people in real life? the brain just works in a weird way. it is just so weird, or am i going insane?
dreams, like in real life, can get really complicated and anything can happen. i still prefer day-dreaming, where everything to me is perfect.
Selena - Dreaming of you
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you
Know I'm there (Am I there)
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside
Would you even care
I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you, yes i do!
I'll dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
(BRIDGE)
Ahh-Ahh
I can't stop dreaming of you
I can't stop dreaming
I can't stop dreaming of you
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that
You came up to me and said
I love you
I love you too
I'll be dreaming with you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world l'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly