^_^Happy birthday to me^_^
I have my guitar now. She is Erica, I asked her to marry me...AND SHE SAID YES!!!
(sidenote:Don't you hate when people make assumtions and think they are better then others? Yeah so do I.)
In other news I am almost finished my mega homework/exam month and right around my birthday too. Man I can't belive I am 20. it feels like I have lived a million lifetimes. Looking past at the last 10 years I have gon through heath problems, abusive surondings, a dozen different homes and a dozen different falily's. I have had horrible depression and thankfully havent had many downs in the last 6 months. ZMy band gets better and better and I have gon through my different phases. Sometimes I look back and think about all the what if's and then realise...no. I would not change one damn thing. Even if i went through a lot of bullshit when I was 10-19. All the hard roads made me who I am today and all the shot in the last couple years made me realise who my true friends are and with my family shit...fuck it, it's the same thing. I am glad I know who isn;t my real family. I am not saying I have no regrets, but if I changed one thing, anything I would not be here today typing this as the person I am. But today I look towards teh future. One thing I am very proud of is my anger, yes I still get angry and have some mood swings and yes I still get sad from time to time. But I am not self destructive anymore. I also just don;t hold real grudges anymore. I mean I don't like evryone(I still don't an amazingly large amount of people) and ya know what I could give two shits if they don't like me. (Just writting about me proves they have nothing better to do)
Now I am going to listen to my new cd Prozzak(sp?) and love my life, flaws and all.
pseudomonas me scripsit anno 2005
Q.O.T.D. "Can you say brainwashing?"
(sidenote:Don't you hate when people make assumtions and think they are better then others? Yeah so do I.)
In other news I am almost finished my mega homework/exam month and right around my birthday too. Man I can't belive I am 20. it feels like I have lived a million lifetimes. Looking past at the last 10 years I have gon through heath problems, abusive surondings, a dozen different homes and a dozen different falily's. I have had horrible depression and thankfully havent had many downs in the last 6 months. ZMy band gets better and better and I have gon through my different phases. Sometimes I look back and think about all the what if's and then realise...no. I would not change one damn thing. Even if i went through a lot of bullshit when I was 10-19. All the hard roads made me who I am today and all the shot in the last couple years made me realise who my true friends are and with my family shit...fuck it, it's the same thing. I am glad I know who isn;t my real family. I am not saying I have no regrets, but if I changed one thing, anything I would not be here today typing this as the person I am. But today I look towards teh future. One thing I am very proud of is my anger, yes I still get angry and have some mood swings and yes I still get sad from time to time. But I am not self destructive anymore. I also just don;t hold real grudges anymore. I mean I don't like evryone(I still don't an amazingly large amount of people) and ya know what I could give two shits if they don't like me. (Just writting about me proves they have nothing better to do)
Now I am going to listen to my new cd Prozzak(sp?) and love my life, flaws and all.
pseudomonas me scripsit anno 2005
Q.O.T.D. "Can you say brainwashing?"