I want to drink- heavily.
it didn't occur to me until AJ said "drink some bourbon" but wow... that is exactly what I need.
I was so angry and upset I forgot how good self medicating feels. (Now, if only I had some bourbon.)
I am done with purgatory, I have to make a move. Maybe several. I am through with living in this state of purgatory, I am through with punishing myself for some of the things that I have done. Done with it. I am making a move, sink or swim, heaven or hell if you will but I am DONE with purgatory.
(Perhaps I will translate what the fuck I am talking about when I am a little more calmed the fuck down, able to think rationally, or just generally less upset.)
I was so angry and upset I forgot how good self medicating feels. (Now, if only I had some bourbon.)
I am done with purgatory, I have to make a move. Maybe several. I am through with living in this state of purgatory, I am through with punishing myself for some of the things that I have done. Done with it. I am making a move, sink or swim, heaven or hell if you will but I am DONE with purgatory.
(Perhaps I will translate what the fuck I am talking about when I am a little more calmed the fuck down, able to think rationally, or just generally less upset.)