sometimes it just hits you...

[lamegurl515]

I normally wouldn't be so down, but as I sit here watching the glistening droplets of rain fall so innocently to the ground, a memory of the past starts running through my head. I remember the days where nothing seemed to matter. A simple hello from that framiliar voice was all I needed to get me through the day. But now I no longer feel that kind of happiness. I mean sure, I am happy, but it's just not the same. I find myself questioning what exactly went wrong. the obvious answer to this question is in fact EVERYTHING. I don't regret my life with him, because some of those memories are quite possibly the best times of my life. Waking up together after a night of sweet whispers of love and life, and days spent doing nothing but just being together. I wish it was easier, you know, forgetting your first love. It seems like you can't pass through a day without being reminded of some little thing the two of you once shared. I guess the more I think about it, the more I wouldn't actually want to forget. I guess what I am trying to say is that I did love him, with all of my heart, and that my biggest regret is that the feelings that I shared with him for a year and a half, weren't with YOU.

just needed to get that out there...but not too worry, college life in nothing short of amazing and the boys are just lovely!

See you all Novemeber 23rd <3