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So I don't think I'm ever going to be able to let her go. I keep thinking about all the things I miss. It's so stupid because we were together for a such a short time it shouldn't even matter. Oh how it does.
I miss how she told me she instantly had a crush on me the day we met. I miss how bad she was at giving me the hint she had the crush. I miss how we were both too stuborn to believe the feelings were mutual. I miss our lightsaber fights. I miss teaching her how to run the projectors at the theatre. I miss never being able to find anything worth doing then settling for playing video games or watching a movie and cuddling in her basement. I miss being at her house 'till 4 am and her being completely exhausted but still willing to stay up 'till I called her when I was home safely. I miss her being too anxious to hear from me and calling before I even got home to see if I was ok, then talking for like an hour before going to sleep. I miss driving up to Frankfort and swinging with her behind her old elementary school at 5 am. I miss our hug - kiss - hug - kiss - hug routine we always went through when saying goodbye. I miss how crazy she'd make me, then always redeem herself hardcore. I miss her weird taste in food. I miss how absolutely gorgeous she was at any given time.
And mostly I just miss us being close. I'd love to have that again even if it was just as friends, but I don't think she's going to let that happen.
I miss how she told me she instantly had a crush on me the day we met. I miss how bad she was at giving me the hint she had the crush. I miss how we were both too stuborn to believe the feelings were mutual. I miss our lightsaber fights. I miss teaching her how to run the projectors at the theatre. I miss never being able to find anything worth doing then settling for playing video games or watching a movie and cuddling in her basement. I miss being at her house 'till 4 am and her being completely exhausted but still willing to stay up 'till I called her when I was home safely. I miss her being too anxious to hear from me and calling before I even got home to see if I was ok, then talking for like an hour before going to sleep. I miss driving up to Frankfort and swinging with her behind her old elementary school at 5 am. I miss our hug - kiss - hug - kiss - hug routine we always went through when saying goodbye. I miss how crazy she'd make me, then always redeem herself hardcore. I miss her weird taste in food. I miss how absolutely gorgeous she was at any given time.
And mostly I just miss us being close. I'd love to have that again even if it was just as friends, but I don't think she's going to let that happen.