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last night (well i guess technically this morning since it was around 1 in the morning...) i was up finishing my book for history and writing a letter to natalie.. and then i was putting my things away when my DAD comes and hes all pissedddddd cause i was still up and then he was like WHAT'S THAT?!cause i had a muscle shirt on...and he TOTALLY saw all the hickeys that could be visible with that shirt on ..i had forgotten i had them and i casually said "Oh. brusing..from softball." and hes like "okay." and then left..... and then this morning my mom told me in the car "Your dad didnt sleep at ALL last night. He doesn't believe you." and im like just sitting there silent in the car and shes like "THOSE LOOK LIKE BITE MARKS" and i flipppped. i was like stuttering a little but trying not to and iw as like THEY'RE FROM SOFTBALL! and she was like HOW and i started totally stuttering saying "Uh. you know the bat well i got hit with like you know at the bototm. the handlish part?? its round? with that...." and then shes like "I don't know.." and then i just said i love you and i got out the car all scared and then i was like FREAKIN SCARED the whole day... and as soon as i got there... I went to the locker toom since i always get to school 20-30 min early and i rubbed the SHI* outta those things and it hurt so bad to do it but i was like desperate and then i went to classes and then in my last class..i told this guy Judson and Kevin (my group members) to hit me really hard around the shoulders for me enough to give me a bruise and they were like wtf...why??and i was like JUST DO ITTTTTTTTTTT! PLEASE????and they didnt want toand i was like DAMMIT CMON!and they felt bad to do it and i was like dammit. or take turns! and judson muttered "maybe take turns fucking..but not hitting"and i was going to say WTF but my priority was getting an actual bruise because the hickeys were sooo going away so it would be obvious if i came home with nothing so then FINALLY after like 20 minutes dude.. Judson hit me like super hard. and i laughed.. ha. and he felt so bad and i was like aw... and it burned haha and i told him to sock me just to make sure and he did but omg it hurttt buts its okay and then he started catching on as to why i needed a bruise so desperately but whatever. and he was like LET ME KNOW if it works. and i was like I WILLLLL! and went to the locker room after school to check on it and my hickeys are pretty much gone (WHICH IS AMAZING IN ITSELF) and i coould see somewhat of a bump forming where he hit me and i was like ugh yes and then I cleared every text i sent and received cause natalie and i were texting back anf forth about what happened last night and stuff cause she didnt come to school
and i was terrified. and i took out annnnnnnnny evidence of anything about mark and ripped it up and threw it away in SEVERAL trash cans ! and then i left my bracelet that says mark, in my locker too!
and then when my mom picked me up i was like HI MOM LETS GO TO THE DENTIST RIGHT NOW I HAVE AN APPT! trying to avoid the subject...but then she brought it up and she bought my explanation.... and she said she'd buy me some shoulder pad things.
pheeeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuw.
and i was terrified. and i took out annnnnnnnny evidence of anything about mark and ripped it up and threw it away in SEVERAL trash cans ! and then i left my bracelet that says mark, in my locker too!
and then when my mom picked me up i was like HI MOM LETS GO TO THE DENTIST RIGHT NOW I HAVE AN APPT! trying to avoid the subject...but then she brought it up and she bought my explanation.... and she said she'd buy me some shoulder pad things.
pheeeeeeeeuuuuuuuuuw.