Action and Purpose
I had a nice night out tonight. Saw a movie, had (South) Korean for dinner, enjoyed the company. The moment I said goodbye, the depression hit.
Conclusions? I don't know what I want. Lack of purpose is a killer. Lack of action is boring. Decisive action is not a part of my current mental makeup. Waiting until you can see the consequences of following a path will cause opportunities to vanish as time progresses. Most of the time, when you can see to the end, it is due to there being a swift ending, which is usually bad.
So what am I going to do about this? I don't know. Hooray for lack of purpose and lack of action!
If only I didn't care. I could experiment properly. I don't care about making a fool out of myself, but crossing boundaries without explicit permission does not happen for me (twice in the last week people were shocked that I actually asked before acting), and taking an action that is likely to hurt someone else is very difficult for me.
To apply a suggestion of Dr de Bono, In Po people have scripts telling them how to act next.
Conclusions? I don't know what I want. Lack of purpose is a killer. Lack of action is boring. Decisive action is not a part of my current mental makeup. Waiting until you can see the consequences of following a path will cause opportunities to vanish as time progresses. Most of the time, when you can see to the end, it is due to there being a swift ending, which is usually bad.
So what am I going to do about this? I don't know. Hooray for lack of purpose and lack of action!
If only I didn't care. I could experiment properly. I don't care about making a fool out of myself, but crossing boundaries without explicit permission does not happen for me (twice in the last week people were shocked that I actually asked before acting), and taking an action that is likely to hurt someone else is very difficult for me.
To apply a suggestion of Dr de Bono, In Po people have scripts telling them how to act next.