Women * Emotions = Confusion
Well... I spent some time in London, and now some in Antwerp. The situation has gotten confused, with feelings and who is going to wind up with whom. This has been made far, far worse by my being out of the country at a critical time.
I worked out a plan with a fair chance of everyone walking out of it happy. Plans are good. The plan is to let Sparks continue on her merry way and return to my old personal plans. It is the only way I can see with a good chance of everyone being happy at the end, which is why I like the plan.
Unfortunately, that's a plan based in logic, not in current feeling. Every related interaction, I make a Willpower check, and here's the successes table:
5: Take action locking me into this plan
4: Successfully pretend to be a robot and significantly further the plan
3: Keep in line with the plan and assist others with belief in it
2: Support the plan but subconsciously imply that there's another choice that I'd rather be making
1: Express my current feelings
0: Break down and say I can't take it any more
So far, I've had 3, 3, 1, 2. The 2 was quite destructive. I can't afford to do that any more - from now I must stick to 3 or move to 4.
Edit:
Here's a tally of my scores. I think time has given a +1 bonus to my 5th and 6th check and +2 to further ones.
3, 3, 1, 2, 4, 4, 5, 4, 5
I worked out a plan with a fair chance of everyone walking out of it happy. Plans are good. The plan is to let Sparks continue on her merry way and return to my old personal plans. It is the only way I can see with a good chance of everyone being happy at the end, which is why I like the plan.
Unfortunately, that's a plan based in logic, not in current feeling. Every related interaction, I make a Willpower check, and here's the successes table:
5: Take action locking me into this plan
4: Successfully pretend to be a robot and significantly further the plan
3: Keep in line with the plan and assist others with belief in it
2: Support the plan but subconsciously imply that there's another choice that I'd rather be making
1: Express my current feelings
0: Break down and say I can't take it any more
So far, I've had 3, 3, 1, 2. The 2 was quite destructive. I can't afford to do that any more - from now I must stick to 3 or move to 4.
Edit:
Here's a tally of my scores. I think time has given a +1 bonus to my 5th and 6th check and +2 to further ones.
3, 3, 1, 2, 4, 4, 5, 4, 5