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...just like half the "songs" i've written. :D
Blah... I'm gonna write one about this, once I get it straight. You ever feel like something like, "supernatural" is trying to force you in one direction... yet you can't really figure out what that is. Like... I don't mean a future job, or anything like that. I mean like, forcing your "inner qualities" to change somehow, become something new.
I'm not really sure how I got that idea... but I feel like that for some reason. It's on the Job/economic level (picking a future, so many options that I think I'd enjoy), it's on the confidence level (I'm actually pretty shy, despite what some people apparantly think), it's on the relationship level (to date, or not to date? That is the question), it's on the friendship/family level (so many people seem to all be having problems right this last few weeks, and of course I wanna help you all, it's just that most of the time I don't know how! ...and the fact that I'm afraid my "help" will make things worse like it sometimes does), it's on the intelligence level (doing homework... and other stuff I need to concentrate on), it's on the religious level (cause I'm not even sure what I believe, some people are trying to force a religion on me (Grandma and Grandpa: I'll pick it myself, ok?), and apparantly that's supposed to help you feel better an' stuff), it's on the creative level (which I sometimes believe I lack, yet at other times thing I excel in...) it's on the ___ level (I can't think of the name for this. >.< Lately, I've been losing alot of stuff (material stuff) and not being able to/randomly at the last second finding it; one of those thing being my grad ring!!! :'( I had it for a whole friekin' week!!!), and... it just seems like all this stuff is happening cause something out there wants me to change somehow. I wish I knew how or why though... but that's one of the mysteries of life, eh?
Anyway... yeah, the Stärgæzr's back in town... This weekend was awesome, and it sucked at the same time! For the most part though; awesome. :) I dunno.. "L" (:P you Amy! HAH) was discovered, which is a plus. I'm feeling alot less worried around people/alot better with myself, which is also a plus. We did Choreo for "Rock this Town" (<-- Awesome song!!!), and I've got a solo in it which is a MAJOR plus of all sorts. I realized that the tenors (the t-team! :D) aren't really much without Harreson, cause it's just the two of us, and things weren't really very good when he left today for Senior Bowl, not exactly a positive thing. Then we did choreo again though, and I got happy again. :) So yeah... I have my own crush now, so booyah Amy and allz you others, cause "L" is more than just the letter for Like now! Hah!
...*cringe* that wasn't even a pun, let alone a good one... But yeah, that's my in-depth post for today. lata ya'll!
Blah... I'm gonna write one about this, once I get it straight. You ever feel like something like, "supernatural" is trying to force you in one direction... yet you can't really figure out what that is. Like... I don't mean a future job, or anything like that. I mean like, forcing your "inner qualities" to change somehow, become something new.
I'm not really sure how I got that idea... but I feel like that for some reason. It's on the Job/economic level (picking a future, so many options that I think I'd enjoy), it's on the confidence level (I'm actually pretty shy, despite what some people apparantly think), it's on the relationship level (to date, or not to date? That is the question), it's on the friendship/family level (so many people seem to all be having problems right this last few weeks, and of course I wanna help you all, it's just that most of the time I don't know how! ...and the fact that I'm afraid my "help" will make things worse like it sometimes does), it's on the intelligence level (doing homework... and other stuff I need to concentrate on), it's on the religious level (cause I'm not even sure what I believe, some people are trying to force a religion on me (Grandma and Grandpa: I'll pick it myself, ok?), and apparantly that's supposed to help you feel better an' stuff), it's on the creative level (which I sometimes believe I lack, yet at other times thing I excel in...) it's on the ___ level (I can't think of the name for this. >.< Lately, I've been losing alot of stuff (material stuff) and not being able to/randomly at the last second finding it; one of those thing being my grad ring!!! :'( I had it for a whole friekin' week!!!), and... it just seems like all this stuff is happening cause something out there wants me to change somehow. I wish I knew how or why though... but that's one of the mysteries of life, eh?
Anyway... yeah, the Stärgæzr's back in town... This weekend was awesome, and it sucked at the same time! For the most part though; awesome. :) I dunno.. "L" (:P you Amy! HAH) was discovered, which is a plus. I'm feeling alot less worried around people/alot better with myself, which is also a plus. We did Choreo for "Rock this Town" (<-- Awesome song!!!), and I've got a solo in it which is a MAJOR plus of all sorts. I realized that the tenors (the t-team! :D) aren't really much without Harreson, cause it's just the two of us, and things weren't really very good when he left today for Senior Bowl, not exactly a positive thing. Then we did choreo again though, and I got happy again. :) So yeah... I have my own crush now, so booyah Amy and allz you others, cause "L" is more than just the letter for Like now! Hah!
...*cringe* that wasn't even a pun, let alone a good one... But yeah, that's my in-depth post for today. lata ya'll!