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Looking back, I did have a really good thing going. A group of friends, all extremely bright, talented, and charitable. I don't know why, but I always felt like I didn't fit in. I've never felt that way about any group of friends, but as time ticks by, I find new ways to deny it.
David, you're right, there was that awkwardness between us. I don't know how we managed to smile and nod without ever once talking about it. I think the reason I felt on gaurd around you is because before I met you, I'd hear about you all the time from Tyler and Billy. This was back in high school, so bear with me if it sounds immature. The way they spoke of you made me feel like you were taking my spot as the outgoing, writer-comedian of the group. (Deep voice... There can be only one..) It was silly and I realized just how silly after I met you. But even as we met, wasn't there always an air of competition? Based on what I know about you (which is relatively little), your first inclination is to be a little confused, in a forced way. Competition? You're above competition. (Except not deep down).
Sometimes I read books that I hate reading- just so I'll have read them. And it's to protect my image. The sad thing is, I don't have much of an image. I have very little control over how people see me, so it may just be to console myself.
David, you're right, there was that awkwardness between us. I don't know how we managed to smile and nod without ever once talking about it. I think the reason I felt on gaurd around you is because before I met you, I'd hear about you all the time from Tyler and Billy. This was back in high school, so bear with me if it sounds immature. The way they spoke of you made me feel like you were taking my spot as the outgoing, writer-comedian of the group. (Deep voice... There can be only one..) It was silly and I realized just how silly after I met you. But even as we met, wasn't there always an air of competition? Based on what I know about you (which is relatively little), your first inclination is to be a little confused, in a forced way. Competition? You're above competition. (Except not deep down).
Sometimes I read books that I hate reading- just so I'll have read them. And it's to protect my image. The sad thing is, I don't have much of an image. I have very little control over how people see me, so it may just be to console myself.