Ms. Lonely
I wish I didn't have to go to my bed alone, once again, as I have every night of my life. I feel that I have moved to the place in my life in which I need someone to just lay with and not be alone at night. I know that these thoughts are probably incorrect, I mean there has to be a reason that our culture tells us we can't do such things at my age, right? Or is there? Is it all just in our heads, make believe and such? I believe that this, like most things, is another matter of perspective. Am I truly mature enough to handle a relationship of that magnitude? Who knows? All I know is that I have an overwhelming feeling of loneliness every night about this time. I look at my bed before I get in it and think how much nicer it would be if my loved one was laying in it already, waiting for me, just to sleep. Because of this loneliness I find myself posting entries on here, maybe to know someone is out there, maybe just to put my feelings down; either way it's simply pathetic. I want love, true, pure, honest love, and I may have it, I may not. Besides the point of having a boyfriend, he's not here with me most nights, so it doesn't help. Honestly I feel more lonely because of it, because I miss him. UGH, I am rambling again. I always ramble.
Why are my thoughts so fucking scattered? Why can't I just type a paragraph that makes sense and goes together?
Night.
Why are my thoughts so fucking scattered? Why can't I just type a paragraph that makes sense and goes together?
Night.