A Tough Spot
I've been feeling really horrible for the last two weeks and I don't fully understand why. William lost his job 3 weeks ago so I'm very stressed about money. I've been remarkably sick with extra helpings of pain, but the antivirals seem to be helping. Work is insane, everyone is quitting again. No sign of new work for William and I'm not sure how hard he's even trying. And while those all sound like great reasons to be depressed they don't quite explain the truly epic levels of despair, hopelessness, frustration and self hatred.
I'm taking my meds. I'm getting decent sleep. plenty of sex and healthy food. But I still spend most of my time a breath away from tears.
I hate this.