I'm on my way to see TDK
Okay, so I am missing sleep tonight to see Heath once more.
I'm really not sure how I will react. I fully expect to cry, and with the other major things going on in my life I'm very afraid that this will "burst the dam". And I'm not sure I'm ready for that quite yet.
I cried for days when Heath died, as many of you did. All of the authors whose stories have kept me focused, whose photos and comments shared their sorrow at the loss of this wonderful man and celebrated his life, I need to thank you. You've kept Heath alive for me, and lessened the grief.
Most of you don't know that my 22 year old son was recently diagnosed with testicular cancer, and even after surgery still has to go through chemotherapy to stop the spread. I'm still in a lot of denial, because I feel I have to stay strong for him. My solace has been here, with you all, as it was six months ago, and before, since BBM changed my world.
That's why I'm frightened to see this film, fear of letting loose all the emotion I have kept inside, like I did when I first saw BBM. But I will be at the 12:01 showing of TDK, partially to honor Heath's last performance, and partially to face the fear I feel. My son will be coming with, in fact my whole family is going. And we'll be okay.
I don't know why I feel the need to say this, just that I do, and I need to say it before I see this film.
I think my world is about to change again.
Thanks for letting me share.
-Joan
I'm really not sure how I will react. I fully expect to cry, and with the other major things going on in my life I'm very afraid that this will "burst the dam". And I'm not sure I'm ready for that quite yet.
I cried for days when Heath died, as many of you did. All of the authors whose stories have kept me focused, whose photos and comments shared their sorrow at the loss of this wonderful man and celebrated his life, I need to thank you. You've kept Heath alive for me, and lessened the grief.
Most of you don't know that my 22 year old son was recently diagnosed with testicular cancer, and even after surgery still has to go through chemotherapy to stop the spread. I'm still in a lot of denial, because I feel I have to stay strong for him. My solace has been here, with you all, as it was six months ago, and before, since BBM changed my world.
That's why I'm frightened to see this film, fear of letting loose all the emotion I have kept inside, like I did when I first saw BBM. But I will be at the 12:01 showing of TDK, partially to honor Heath's last performance, and partially to face the fear I feel. My son will be coming with, in fact my whole family is going. And we'll be okay.
I don't know why I feel the need to say this, just that I do, and I need to say it before I see this film.
I think my world is about to change again.
Thanks for letting me share.
-Joan