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I really dont feel like I have any good friends anymore.
People who I spent a lot of time with in high school I have lost touch with and when i try and talk to them now I am ignored. I get the sense they are mad at me, but i have hardly talked to them so i dont know why they would be. There are graduation parties i wasnt invited to, and other get togethers i am left out of that keep pooping up on that damn facebook feed. I dont want to know about them anymore and i am trying not to. Yesterday one of my 'friends' was suppose to tell me if he found anything to do, and he did, with a bunch of people i know, and one that isnt too fond of me. So i was not invited. It just really upsets me.
So basically it comes down to most people not responding when i contact them, acting like they are too good for me, or being so involved with their bf that they really dont have any time. Then there are the guy friends, who most the time are okay, until they say something sexual which makes me think that they are just hoping that i will hook up with them. Its not just people i know from high school, its college people to, i just feel like they are all way better friends than i am with them. what can i do. i am so freakin alone. i hate it.
I really dont think going back to school is even going to help. Its the same story, different place.
People who I spent a lot of time with in high school I have lost touch with and when i try and talk to them now I am ignored. I get the sense they are mad at me, but i have hardly talked to them so i dont know why they would be. There are graduation parties i wasnt invited to, and other get togethers i am left out of that keep pooping up on that damn facebook feed. I dont want to know about them anymore and i am trying not to. Yesterday one of my 'friends' was suppose to tell me if he found anything to do, and he did, with a bunch of people i know, and one that isnt too fond of me. So i was not invited. It just really upsets me.
So basically it comes down to most people not responding when i contact them, acting like they are too good for me, or being so involved with their bf that they really dont have any time. Then there are the guy friends, who most the time are okay, until they say something sexual which makes me think that they are just hoping that i will hook up with them. Its not just people i know from high school, its college people to, i just feel like they are all way better friends than i am with them. what can i do. i am so freakin alone. i hate it.
I really dont think going back to school is even going to help. Its the same story, different place.