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So just today I got to thinking about some things. A bunch of interviews were floating around today and it is still a little weird knowing Kevin is no longer in the group. And people are obviously a little upset with him which I get and I was sad still am sorta I thought to honest to god when the rumor was confirmed it was all over but no they are going back into the studio I wonder how long that will last before everything crumbles? I can afford to bus down to tx for bri's show and I want it to be fun but I dont want to be a burden I feel that way often because I dont drive and all.
My month long trip which is wayy to long to be living with eight other people gave me a new prospective on things. I no longer crave to go back and visit or move back to colorado there isnt much there for me...sure I have friends but it just isnt the same I really wish I had someone to fall back on a good friend but I dont and it sucks. I have felt this way since college started or even before that I guess thats growing up and just my luck. Saw my nonexistant grandfather it was soo good for me to see him...but weird I wasnt very affectionate heck he was more affectionate to me. I was treated alot like a child there and I guess I sort am still. I quit all these jobs cuz I cant handle it or dont want to work. I have all these bills from college that I cant afford those financial aid people are no help at all. I hate money I hate being poor, I hate being average with no scholarships. I think it would be a mistake to leave college or ASU.
There is so much more crap I could write about in here. I have to get a job once I get back from texas...
I practically had to beg to get people wanting to travel elsewhere to see the fireworks for the fourth.
I want to move on from the guys you know cave in and do what everyone else says but its hard.
My month long trip which is wayy to long to be living with eight other people gave me a new prospective on things. I no longer crave to go back and visit or move back to colorado there isnt much there for me...sure I have friends but it just isnt the same I really wish I had someone to fall back on a good friend but I dont and it sucks. I have felt this way since college started or even before that I guess thats growing up and just my luck. Saw my nonexistant grandfather it was soo good for me to see him...but weird I wasnt very affectionate heck he was more affectionate to me. I was treated alot like a child there and I guess I sort am still. I quit all these jobs cuz I cant handle it or dont want to work. I have all these bills from college that I cant afford those financial aid people are no help at all. I hate money I hate being poor, I hate being average with no scholarships. I think it would be a mistake to leave college or ASU.
There is so much more crap I could write about in here. I have to get a job once I get back from texas...
I practically had to beg to get people wanting to travel elsewhere to see the fireworks for the fourth.
I want to move on from the guys you know cave in and do what everyone else says but its hard.