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I am so incredibly drained. School is stressing me out. I am going back to Colorado for a month, I dont know what to think about that, I am just worried noone will care to see me. I think people are sick of my self pity ways. I am driving away people with my depression. I cry for no reason, I feel all alone. Like noone cares, most of my online friends are just fake bitches. I am getting sick of my fandom I try to use it to feel this void inside.
People just piss me off for no good reasons, is it normal to feel these things? I am sick of the oh I am sorry not even my parents get it. It is like noone takes my depression seriously, they are always saying oh its no big deal we all feel this way sometimes. Maybe I just want attention is that to hard to ask? OH and whenever I mention a big tramatic event in my life people make it out to be nothing but it is something, that will affect me for the rest of my life. And I cant even tell the person who cares the most because I am afraid she wont believe me or tell my aunt and she wont believe me, its all just one big mess.
I realized it is no good to say this day is bad because it is the 13th aniversary of the guys being together, but what about Columbine, and the fact that people can be retarded and smoke pot?
People just piss me off for no good reasons, is it normal to feel these things? I am sick of the oh I am sorry not even my parents get it. It is like noone takes my depression seriously, they are always saying oh its no big deal we all feel this way sometimes. Maybe I just want attention is that to hard to ask? OH and whenever I mention a big tramatic event in my life people make it out to be nothing but it is something, that will affect me for the rest of my life. And I cant even tell the person who cares the most because I am afraid she wont believe me or tell my aunt and she wont believe me, its all just one big mess.
I realized it is no good to say this day is bad because it is the 13th aniversary of the guys being together, but what about Columbine, and the fact that people can be retarded and smoke pot?