Today Today
I dont know what i want to do. I havn't accomplished anything in life. I know that I'm only 17 but still, I just fill like if some one were to say,"what accomplishment are you most proud of?" I wouldn't have an anwser. And to further that diliema, I dont know what i want to accomplish. I've wanted to be a muscian, a doctor, a biologist all time and time again and nothing really sticks. I just feel like its time to start working tiwards something but i dont know what to work for, theres no guidelines and im worried. I have waited to take my act in september and sat in october because i was avoiding having to take the next step. It feels like everyone else has a plan and a purpose and that im just floating in lala land an i know its not true, it just FEELS that way. I miss kyle too. I know its dumb but i hate the summer. I see him everyday all year and then when summer is here I dont see him because he lives so far away. It's been a month and i know its not that long but i miss his laugh and his stupid faces and snuggling with him. Hes out of town niw but when he gets back were going camping so thats fun. I know its stupid but i just feel like im some aimless wonder, I dont want to make the wrong desicion and ruin my life.
Ok. Now that i got that out I guess i can share some good stuff. I went shopping today and got two pairs or shorts and two shirts and then a new vera bradley big backpack for school and a small cambridge backpack because i wanted it and i ordered a puccini tall tote. its an addiction for sure. anyhow i hate clothes shooling, especailly right now because im inbetween sizes. Its so annoying to have something feel a little to snug and then go up a size and find yourself swimming in cloth, this is why I make my own clothing. I also made a new pair of corodry shorts with a cuff, a plaid vest and a black and white dress. the tips of my left hand fingers are becoming callised from playing guitar and they feel funny. My pinky is the worst. Im sorry for all the spelling errors, I know that they're bad but whatever,im to tired to fix them. Go see wanted, I dont like action movies but it was AMAZING, "What the fuck have you done lately?". spoiler: thats how it ends and thats what spawned this whole ahhhhh.
I've done nothing of importance latly. I need to be studious. I think that next year i am going to be a better friend to alex bosak. I think i might invite him to lasser tag, its fun. I mean i just think that he woould get along well with people i know and his rotc buddies have graduated and idk, hes always nice to me and im always nice to him, he should be better friends.oh well that was out of nowhere. Anyway, good night all and to all a goodnight.