summer

[lakynispresent]

        so i feel like yet again im wasting my summer away. I feel like all i do is sit around and spuraticlly babysit through-out the week. i want to go out and have fun and enjoy summer. I miss kyle. We havn't spoken in over a week, not because were fighting, just because we havn't talked. On top of that hes leaving to stay with his sister for a while after the fourth. hopefully he'll be able to go camping. I just feel so down. Im so tired of not being able to do things. OH, and not only thaqt but i still have yet to get my licsence. I mean whatever, if im not ready im not ready but at least let me try. I mean it'll be the week before school before i take the test and im just over it you know, like goodness, just let me take the test. but no, she's just not ready to let go. I mean i know its sweet and i understand but i just want the chance and every time i say something its like yea whatever. idk, I know there are more important things going on i just am trapped in this bubble that i cant get out of. 
         Alright not ALL of it is bad, I have learned to play bubbly on the guitar and i know how to restring both and electric and acoustic guitar. it was cool. I think im going to save up and get and electric acoustic because i dont have one and i want one BADLY! I have found one that is absolutly amazing however i still dont know how much it is. but i want it and i think im gonna get it. i also am making money from watching babies spuratically thorughout the week so thats a plus. sorry about the rant ive just been cooped up with no one to talk to. well yeah thats about it. sorry for the HORRIBLE spelling, i know its bad.