Faking Family: Part 2
TITLE: FAKING FAMILY
PAIRING: MATSUMIYA, BROKEN SAKUMIYA
GENRE: SLIGHT ANGST, ROMANCE
DISCLAIMER: WISH I OWN THEM, BUT I DON´T :(
SUMMARY: WHEN ONE LOVE IS PUNISHED, ANOTHER ONE CAN BE YOUR SALVATION
Part 1
It was almost a year since he started pretending to be Jun’s cousin when he got to meet the king. Apparently, King Ohno had been requesting to his friend to bring Kazunari to the palace but Jun always had an excuse to give. But now the King himself was on his way to Matsumoto’s country house to visit his longtime friend and keep an eye on the bordering cities of his kingdom.
Jun had soothed Kazunari’s nerves by telling him that the king was a trustworthy and noble man, but the younger was still terrified of being found out and face the king’s punishment. After all, he didn’t have the best experience with kings in the past.
The King’s delegation was a small one, but one could sense the respect of the citizens as they passed by the town. When they reach the house entry, the King was the first to get down of his horse and in a few steps he came to hug his cousin. Somehow, the proximity of the two men made Kazunari a little uncomfortable. King Ohno was short, skin darken by the sun (he had heard of the king’s hobby), with gentle eyes and a sleepy smile.
“So this is your cousin?” The king asked looking at Kazunari, who bowed profusely, the fear making his heart pound loudly inside his chest.
“Welcome, your majesty” he responded still with his head low.
The king gave a soft chuckle “Lift your chin boy, and let me see your face”
He looked up and got more nervous as king examined him carefully “Uhm, now I understand you, Jun” he said softly turning back to his friend. After that, the King went to his prepared room to rest for the rest of the afternoon. At dinner only the King, Jun and Kazunari sat at the table, and the younger man started to loosen up as King Ohno was, as Jun had said, amicable and easy to talk to. After conscious observation, Kazunari concluded that the King didn’t look or acted like a conventional leader at all, but it was fine because he was loved by his people. They talked mostly of things that were happening at the capital and, of course, Jun was reprimanded for not taking his cousin to court.
“So, your majesty couldn’t wait until we go visit you?” Jun asked the king in a total informal way, but his cousin was getting use to see them act like that.
“You know you wouldn’t bring him there… Afraid?” the king replied with an amused smile.
“People in court can be cruel” Jun offered as an answer, his eyebrows slightly frowned.
“They wouldn’t dare messing up with you”
“Because the king is my friend?” Jun mocked
“No, because you’re Matsumoto Jun. They are more afraid of you than they are of me, I’m sure of that. Haven’t you looked yourself at a mirror when mad? It really is a scary view” the king mocked
Kazunari pursued his lips trying to control a laugh, Jun indeed was a really scary man when angered, he had seen it in front row and was definitely not a good sight.
The King noticed him “And I’m not the only one who thinks like that” he said smiling at Kazunari, making Jun turned his head so fast it made a sound. The lord glared at him.
Kazunari couldn’t hold back the laugh anymore “Sorry” he apologized between giggles, but the King was laughing too.
Jun pouted crossing his arms in annoyance, it was the first time Kazunari saw him do something so childish and he thought it was adorable.
“Anyway” Lord Matsumoto tried to chance the subject “I heard you’ll be visiting Kastra for the royal wedding, is that true?”
Kazunari’s ears perked up at that. A wedding? Whose’s wedding?
“I’ve been invited, yes” The King responded “We’ll be heading to meet the rest of the diplomatic party and make the trip together. It’ll be a good opportunity to overcome old grudges don’t you think?”
Jun nodded “It sure is”
“In fact I came here too to invite you to join us” he looked at Kazunari “maybe your cousin would want to go too. It’s not every day that a crown prince gets married”
Kazunari felt his heart clenched and his head spin, his hands started to shake and in his intend hide it he put both hands under the table, trying to gain control over them. He felt his face flushed and his eyes watering. Fortunately, King Ohno was in that moment to immerse in his delicious food to perceive the change. However, the same didn’t happen to Jun, who was looking at him with deep concern and, in a surprising gesture, guided his right hand over Kazunari’s own trembling ones, squeezing them in reassuring way to let him know it was okay, that he was there.
With confidence his cousin turned to the King “We can’t. I have delicate issues to take care personally and Kazunari must help me. Thanks for thinking in us, thought, hope your majesty has a good trip”
Grumpily the king accepted the excuse “I understand”
Kazunari didn’t remember the rest of the conversation. He tried to focus and at least give some answers when asked, but he was failing miserably. That’s when his cousin again came to his help, rushing the King to the studio and ordering Kazunari to sleep already. He bid the respective good night and hurried his way to his room. Once inside, he locked the door and rush to the lower drawer of his bureau where Sho’s letter was hidden. One year ago, after he found it in his bag that was returned to him when he recovered, he decided to hid it, even from him. Every night he felt tempted to read it but he had promised himself that he’ll be strong, that some else needed him now and he has to do his best and no let himself get depressed again. However, the news had opened wounds he had tried to forget and still couldn’t. Maybe never will. Trying to calm down his frantic heart and to stop the already falling tears he read it again.
Dear love,
If you’re reading this then you’re finally safe, miles of distance apart from me but alive, and that’s the most I can do for you. I wish I could do more, I wish I could run away with you and find our own place where we would grow old together; but we know it’s impossible, they would never allow it and don’t matter where will go, they would find us, and when that happens I wouldn’t be able to protect you anymore. So let me do it now that I still can.
For me having your love was the blessing of my life, no one would ever come close to what I feel for you. Never, be sure of that. However, I have to let you go my love. My heart is ripping apart as I write these words, because I know this is our goodbye.
I want you to start anew, to make friends and to love again. Yes, my love, I want you to love, that is my selfish wish. If you do that I won’t feel like a bastard that crushed your heart and left you empty. You’re such a precious man that deserves to be loved and treasured immensely, and it kills me not being the one doing it. So, put our memories in a corner of your heart and only look at them from time to time with a fond smile in your face. No cries or tears, just a simple smile for an old friend.
I’ll stay here and be a good son, maybe you’d heard of me. I’ll give my best effort so what you hear will make you proud, because you made of me a better person, a better man.
I want to say more, but time is short, so can I say it one last time?
I love you.
S.
When he finished he had to cover his mouth to control his cries. He had lost him, he definitely lost him. His prince was getting married to some woman fitted to be the next queen. A woman that would gave him the heirs a kingdom demands and who would share his bed every night. He had lost him now. No, he shook his head furiously, he lost him the day they found out, and this wedding just makes the end more definitely. The letter in his hand was just a formality of what they knew but didn’t want to accept. Sho was at the end the braver one, he thought bitterly.
His breathing was evening when someone knocked at his door. “Kazunari, open the door. I need to talk to you” His cousin asked in a low voice
He did it immediately, so used to obey.
Jun looked a little perturbed “I think we ha-” he stopped when he saw Nino’s tear-tainted face “what’s wrong?” he asked quickly.
Kazunari tried to hide his remain tears but it was already too late. He saw Jun gazing at the letter on the bed. Before he had time to take it, Jun reached for it, but he didn’t read it, he just look over it once and gave it to him “I guess it can’t be delay it anymore” his cousin told him “It’s time I know how much I trust me” and uncertainly, as Kazunari never saw him before, he sat on the bed, motioning for the smaller man to do the same.
Without thinking too much he responded “I trust you, I really do”. Letting his tears flow again he continued “I fell in love with a man. I was just a servant and he… he was prominent. Can-can I keep the name to myself?” he looked at Jun, pleading with his eyes; his cousin nodded “He loved me too and we kept it a secret, until his father found out and I ended in a dungeon... But he managed to help me escape and sent me away, so far that I got here… where you found me” When he finished telling this short version of his story, Nino felt his muscles relaxing and the burden in his chest more lightening. However, he was still afraid of Jun’s reaction.
“What’s your name?” was Jun first question after hearing it all.
Nino looked up again “N-nino” he stuttered “I mean Ninomiya Seiji, that’s my name, but they called me Nino”
“Ninomiya Seiji” Jun repeated it as if trying the words “Nino… so that’s all?”
He gasped in surprise “I- you… you don’t feel disgusted?”
Jun frowned “Disgusted? Why would I? Falling in love is not a crime in my book” he asserted firmly, making his cousin smile in appreciation and relief.
“Can I ask you something?”
Jun assented and Kazunari finally asked what was his bugging him since he met the lord “Why you picked me? I mean, why are you doing all this?”
Jun let out a huge sigh and Kazunari saw the sadness heavy on his eyes “It’s complicated. At first it was only a tragic coincidence. I think no one had told you about the real Kazunari”
Nino opened his eyes big, there was a real Kazunari?
“Kazunari and I were very close, like brothers, we used to have so much fun playing around and competing against each other. It was in that mood that I dared him to a race. He didn’t want to but I pushed him to accept it. I ride my horse leaving him behind, feeling like I won when in reality…” he paused “when I came back the same road I saw his horse running away, Kazunari was not on it. I found him not so far away, he was in so much pain but I couldn’t do anything to help him, he died in my arms there… in the place where I found you that rainy day” Jun was pouring his heart out, letting the slow tears show his deepest remorse, even if he didn’t say it Kazunari could see the guilt, still a heavy weight in his heart, so he took his hands and tried to gave him the same encouragement he gave him under the table; it’s okay, I’m here.
Without thinking too much about it, Kazunari leaned his head on his cousin’s shoulder, still holding tight on his hands. They stayed in that position for several minutes, letting the pain go and holding onto each other’s with only a touch of hands. It was enough in that moment... they were enough.
It was Jun who broke the comfortable silence “Kazunari?”
“Uhm?”
“Can I sleep here tonight?” Jun asked in a soft voice.
The younger man let go of his place on his cousin’s shoulder, blinked twice and then let go of his hands to walk around the bed and pulling the covers away he laid there. His cousin understood the action and after blowing the candles followed Kazunari, lying next to him face to face. He covered them both and stayed in that position, soft breathing in the darkness of the room.
After a moment Jun cleared his throat “I must confess something” Kazunari stayed quiet just listening “I read your letter before, it was with your belongings and when I brought you-”
“And you still let me stay?”
Jun nodded even if couldn’t be seen in the dark “I want you to know something… Kazunari, my real cousin, he was the reason why I brought you here but… he’s not the reason I asked you to live with me. At first I thought it was my wish of wanting a family, but now I know it’s more than that”
“I don’t follow”
The older man made a pause, deciding still if this was the right time “Do you want to know why I knocked on your door tonight?”
For the first time Kazunari noticed that it was indeed weird.
“The King is concerned, people in the city are talking about you and well… it’s not good. They think that you somehow had found a way to manipulate me or something, and that your origin should be investigate it”
“That’s why the King is here” Kazunari realized.
“Yes, he wanted to make sure. He knows now that’s not true and he would stop the rumors, he promised me. I came to tell you so you’ll be more careful… Anyway, what stroke me was something the king said”
“What?”
Jun talked lower, almost in a whisper “He says I look happier… and he thinks it’s because of you”
“M-me?”
“And he’s right, I’m happy, after a long time I can say that I found someone that I want to protect with all I got” Jun took a deep breath “Kazunari, I love you”
He didn’t know what to say, he could only felt his stomach fluttering and his heart beating faster, signs he recognized but refused to acknowledge. He was just healing of a broken heart; he couldn’t think of somebody else in this moment. On the other hand this was Jun, and the thought of hurting him was like a punishment to him “I-I-”
“It’s okay, you don’t have to answer me. I don’t expect you to, I just wanted to let it out of my chest… I’m sorry if I scared you”
“You- you didn’t scare me. I mean, it’s just-” he sighed “I never imagined that you-”
“Let’s not talk about it anymore, okay?” Jun interrupted him “Let’s just sleep, I don’t want you to act different around me, promise me you won’t” Jun pleaded
“I promise” Kazunari whispered softly, wanting to do say more but he wasn’t emotionally ready.
During his conversation they had been drawing closer to each other and at the time they were almost in a cuddle position. “Good night, Kazunari” Jun whispered
“Good night, Jun” Kazunari replied, enjoying the warm that irradiates Jun’s body. With closed eyes he leaned on his chest and seconds later he felt Jun’s arms holding him by the waist. It felt right, but there was no rush; they made a silent pact to let things flow naturally and not let anything destroy what they already have, and with that resolution the cousins felt in a pleasant dream.
The King left two days after and at the moment of his departure Kazunari felt the amused stares King Ohno threw at Jun. At some point of the farewell, the King pulled him apart “Take care of him, Kazunari” was his request. He reacted with a nod and a smile, fighting the blush that was spreading over his face and that made the King laugh. He didn’t hear what the King told Jun, but he assumed it was something embarrassing for the way Jun’s cheeks colored red and his eyes seemed to pop out of his orbs; it was really funny.
The next time they were alone he couldn’t help asking “Jun, aren’t you worry? About what they say?” he mumbled, feeling guilty for causing the lord so many inconvenient.
“I only care what the people I love thinks” Jun stated looking directly at him “And as we have the King´s support they will stop. He jokes about me being scary but let me tell you something, King Ohno is someone you don’t want to have as your enemy, he would crash you like the devil himself”
His cousin found that hard to believe, but if Jun says so it must be true. He only hopes to never get on the wrong side to the King.
*
Months passed and Sho was married now, he knew it for the letter the King sent. It was a beautiful wedding and the royal couple looked very much in love. Kazu wanted to believe that, his heart prayed every night for Sho to achieve some form of happiness. He did it no longer with tears but with a soft smile, while he treasured the fond memories his first love gave to him.
He also added in his prays the two brothers that helped him get away, hoping life had found a way to pay their kindness as he was too far to do something for them.
One day, Kazu and Jun were practically locked inside the house because of the heavy rain that didn’t seem to stop. It was too cold and all the fire places had to been turned on. When Kazunari saw Touma carrying a tray with hot tea upstairs, he frowned in worry. “Is that for my cousin?” he asked
“Yes, the lord doesn’t feel so good today, maybe he’ll get a cold”
The younger man hummed, he hated the idea of Jun to getting sick, so he walked towards Touma and took the tray from him “I’ll take it myself, thank you Touma”
The butler only nodded and left with an understanding smile. The past months the cousin had gotten closer at everyone’s eyes. Strangely, they were no sneaking going around, only gratefulness for the good mood Lord Matsumoto ported every day.
He didn’t knock and with uttered care entered Jun’s bedroom. His cousin was sleeping, so he let the tray on the nightstand and gently patted the lord´s shoulder “Jun… Jun, wake up”
The lord opened slowly his eyes, blinking a few seconds to later grin at the intruder, sitting up “Kazu, why are you here?”
“You have to drink this lemon tea, Jun; it would help you feel better” he said while putting his small hand on Jun’s forehead “Good, no fever” and then pushing the cup to the lord’s hands.
“I just felt a little tired, it’s nothing” the taller man said although his cheeks were a little flushed, but it was definitely fault of Kazunari’s presence in his room.
“You can never be too careful” said the younger sitting on one side of the bed,
“Such a worrywart” Jun teased before his first sip.
“I learned from the best” he replied with a smirk on his face making Jun blush in shame. The last time Kazu got sick it was just a slight cold, but Jun put everyone in the house and the doctor in red code alert. Even King Ohno, miles away had found out of Kazunari’s condition and sent a long letter offering the help of the royal physician and his best regards.
They stayed in silence until Jun finished the tea “Happy now?” he asked showing the empty cup to his cousin and leaving it on the tray.
Kazu nodded “Yes, I’m happy” he said beaming brightly. He truly was; he felt blessed for having crossed paths with Jun, the peace and sense of belonging the lord gives him is something he never knew of, not even in Kastra. Not even with Sho. But there was something more he felt grateful for, and that was Jun’s love. He could feel it every second of every day; it had reached to him so strong and fast that he feels dizzy with only Jun’s smell or touch.
Maybe the secret meaning reached the lord, or it was a natural instinct, but the older man couldn’t help himself to lean close to Kazu’s beautiful face and close the distance between their mouths. Kazunari responded the kiss immediately, his arms wrapping around Jun’s neck to pull him closer and made the kiss more passionate. “Kazu” Jun whispered hotly when they had to pull apart to take some necessary air, only to be lip-locked again a second later. By his part, Kazu moved from his sitting position on the edge of the bed to climb and sit on Jun’s lap, straddling the lord. The feeling of Jun’s hands caressing his back and sliding down to his ass lighting all his senses and making him moan inside Jun’s delicious mouth. The tongues played freely with each other, tasting new flavors that accentuated the desire to be united as one.
“Jun~” Kazu moaned when the other started kissing a trail down his neck, “Jun, take this off” he demanded gripping the lord’s shirt. Jun looked hesitant to pull apart, too engrossed in exploring Kazu’s long white neck. But when the younger man found a way into his shirt and started teasing his nipples, he quickly removed the offending piece of fabric to feel more of those cute hands. Garment by garment the clothes were falling to the floor, leaving the lovers butt naked gazing at each other for the first time, taking in every little detail.
Jun managed to roll them over so Kazu was under him, skin touching in delicious friction, and groins rotating to bring them more pleasure. The older man could get enough of that white milky skin, so he touched, kissed and bitted wherever he could; while Kazu writhen frantically for all the attention “God… Kazu you’re so sexy” he groaned, enjoying the view that was his lover.
“Jun~” Kazunari called for him “Jun, take me” he asked in a soft innocent voice that may look unfitted for what they were doing but that tone vanished all Jun´s self-restrain. Either way, the lord asked “Are you sure?” concern rising in his heart for he didn’t have any experience with men. Kazu kissed him to encourage his lover and then signaled at a hand cream in his dressing table and Jun went to fetch it. When he turned to the bed again, Kazu was stroking his hard member while moaning Jun’s name; as if pull by and invisible force he kneeled at his feet and replaced Kazu’s hands with his own. Two strokes and he leaned to lick the oozing pre-cum at the tip, making his lover cried louder. It tasted salty, but it was Kazu’s and that made the flavor so rich and unique and he swore he wouldn’t let anyone else to have that privilege. He continued his way down, licking the shaft all the way to the balls and then going back up to end with a suck on the tip. He continued this way for a while until he felt more adventurous to take more of the beautiful cock in his mouth, relaxing his throat as much as he could. He was rewarded with a high-pitch cry from Kazu that made his own member twitch; he only stopped when Kazunari pulled at his hair.
Kazu was panting hard as he pushed Jun away; he knew it had to be done to get what he really wanted. Taking the abandoned bottle, he poured the lotion on his fingers and started playing with his hole. With open legs he pushed the first digit in containing a scream; after all it was so long ago the last time he did something like this. He forced himself to relax to give Jun a good show. The lord was in a trance following the movements of his hand with darkening eyes and open mouth. Then there were two fingers and Kazu started to groan shamelessly, making the lord curious, who with a trembling hand approached the twitching hole and inserted his long middle finger to join the stubby ones of his cousin. Kazu’s head twisted back “Jun~” he cried loud as the lord reached his spot “Yes~, there”
Matsumoto knew he did something good so he continued his movements, finger fucking Kazu’s ass, until the smaller man yelled for him to stop. Jun was at his limit, so he lined himself to the waiting hole and pushed his hard cock inside, inch by inch, gasping at the heat and oh so delicious pressure of Kazu´s tight ring of muscles. When he was fully in, he couldn’t stop anymore and started thrusting frantically not giving the other man a moment to breath. But Kazu didn’t need much, he had enjoyed a blowjob, then his spot had been teased by Jun’s fingers and now he could feel that beautiful cock filling him, making him cry for more while his heart felt like exploding. He surrounded Jun’s slim waist with his legs, forcing him to go deeper until a change of angle touched that place makes him see white. “Jun!... oh fuck… so good~… Fuck!” he couldn’t stop cursing and gripping tightly to his lovers arms he could almost taste his orgasm.
The lord never thought that being with Kazu this way could be so glorious, it was really out of this world. When he leaned down to get a kiss he saw his lover’s face twisting in pure pleasure so he kept hitting that spot mercilessly, until both got lost in the fire that was their love making.
Kazunari barely got the chance to touch himself and he was already spilling his seamen between them, a load scream of “Jun!” on his lips. The lord groaned loudly at the extra pressure on his cock and with two more thrusts he filled the smaller man’s ass.
Breathing was a hard task, but the sensations around them were heaven; the smell of sex was all around them, making them proud of what they achieved in their first time together. They laughed, still basking in aftershocks of such a great orgasm; Jun’s face was full of life as he looked at his lover “I love you Ninomiya Seiji”
Kazunari shook his head “I’m Matsumoto Kazunari” he told him resolutely “The boy named Nino died a long time ago… but there’s a man here” he signaled to himself “that loves Matsumoto Jun very much. So much that is feels like a dream” he beamed with sparkling eyes.
Jun couldn’t help to drop kisses all over Kazu’s face, still over and inside him “I love you, Kazu”
“I love you too Jun” Kazu responded, caressing his cousin’s cheeks.
Jun kissed him deeply, his heart filled with so much love for this once stranger that came into his life an made him enjoy life again. Love was no longer his secret wish, it was now a reality drawn with light brown eyes.
And the man Kazunari learned to let go; even if his first love didn’t had a happy ending he´ll forever keep the memories of the short time they had, and treasured them for they lead him to his Jun. He would protect their love with all he has and he knows Jun would do the same. They are a family, had been for a long time and always will.
Locked in a tight embrace the lovers drifted to sleep, with silent promises that would lead them to a bright future. The formal servant lost a love and the place he lived. But his fortune had provided him a new love and a home that would be theirs roof until death takes him away. Most possible, when his hair is white and death itself would be the gate to encounter his Jun again. And then, they’ll be together again… and again.
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This fic took me a week, I can't believe I was so slow...
Well, hopefully you would like it, tell me what you think so I can improve
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Mata ne :)
PAIRING: MATSUMIYA, BROKEN SAKUMIYA
GENRE: SLIGHT ANGST, ROMANCE
DISCLAIMER: WISH I OWN THEM, BUT I DON´T :(
SUMMARY: WHEN ONE LOVE IS PUNISHED, ANOTHER ONE CAN BE YOUR SALVATION
Part 1
It was almost a year since he started pretending to be Jun’s cousin when he got to meet the king. Apparently, King Ohno had been requesting to his friend to bring Kazunari to the palace but Jun always had an excuse to give. But now the King himself was on his way to Matsumoto’s country house to visit his longtime friend and keep an eye on the bordering cities of his kingdom.
Jun had soothed Kazunari’s nerves by telling him that the king was a trustworthy and noble man, but the younger was still terrified of being found out and face the king’s punishment. After all, he didn’t have the best experience with kings in the past.
The King’s delegation was a small one, but one could sense the respect of the citizens as they passed by the town. When they reach the house entry, the King was the first to get down of his horse and in a few steps he came to hug his cousin. Somehow, the proximity of the two men made Kazunari a little uncomfortable. King Ohno was short, skin darken by the sun (he had heard of the king’s hobby), with gentle eyes and a sleepy smile.
“So this is your cousin?” The king asked looking at Kazunari, who bowed profusely, the fear making his heart pound loudly inside his chest.
“Welcome, your majesty” he responded still with his head low.
The king gave a soft chuckle “Lift your chin boy, and let me see your face”
He looked up and got more nervous as king examined him carefully “Uhm, now I understand you, Jun” he said softly turning back to his friend. After that, the King went to his prepared room to rest for the rest of the afternoon. At dinner only the King, Jun and Kazunari sat at the table, and the younger man started to loosen up as King Ohno was, as Jun had said, amicable and easy to talk to. After conscious observation, Kazunari concluded that the King didn’t look or acted like a conventional leader at all, but it was fine because he was loved by his people. They talked mostly of things that were happening at the capital and, of course, Jun was reprimanded for not taking his cousin to court.
“So, your majesty couldn’t wait until we go visit you?” Jun asked the king in a total informal way, but his cousin was getting use to see them act like that.
“You know you wouldn’t bring him there… Afraid?” the king replied with an amused smile.
“People in court can be cruel” Jun offered as an answer, his eyebrows slightly frowned.
“They wouldn’t dare messing up with you”
“Because the king is my friend?” Jun mocked
“No, because you’re Matsumoto Jun. They are more afraid of you than they are of me, I’m sure of that. Haven’t you looked yourself at a mirror when mad? It really is a scary view” the king mocked
Kazunari pursued his lips trying to control a laugh, Jun indeed was a really scary man when angered, he had seen it in front row and was definitely not a good sight.
The King noticed him “And I’m not the only one who thinks like that” he said smiling at Kazunari, making Jun turned his head so fast it made a sound. The lord glared at him.
Kazunari couldn’t hold back the laugh anymore “Sorry” he apologized between giggles, but the King was laughing too.
Jun pouted crossing his arms in annoyance, it was the first time Kazunari saw him do something so childish and he thought it was adorable.
“Anyway” Lord Matsumoto tried to chance the subject “I heard you’ll be visiting Kastra for the royal wedding, is that true?”
Kazunari’s ears perked up at that. A wedding? Whose’s wedding?
“I’ve been invited, yes” The King responded “We’ll be heading to meet the rest of the diplomatic party and make the trip together. It’ll be a good opportunity to overcome old grudges don’t you think?”
Jun nodded “It sure is”
“In fact I came here too to invite you to join us” he looked at Kazunari “maybe your cousin would want to go too. It’s not every day that a crown prince gets married”
Kazunari felt his heart clenched and his head spin, his hands started to shake and in his intend hide it he put both hands under the table, trying to gain control over them. He felt his face flushed and his eyes watering. Fortunately, King Ohno was in that moment to immerse in his delicious food to perceive the change. However, the same didn’t happen to Jun, who was looking at him with deep concern and, in a surprising gesture, guided his right hand over Kazunari’s own trembling ones, squeezing them in reassuring way to let him know it was okay, that he was there.
With confidence his cousin turned to the King “We can’t. I have delicate issues to take care personally and Kazunari must help me. Thanks for thinking in us, thought, hope your majesty has a good trip”
Grumpily the king accepted the excuse “I understand”
Kazunari didn’t remember the rest of the conversation. He tried to focus and at least give some answers when asked, but he was failing miserably. That’s when his cousin again came to his help, rushing the King to the studio and ordering Kazunari to sleep already. He bid the respective good night and hurried his way to his room. Once inside, he locked the door and rush to the lower drawer of his bureau where Sho’s letter was hidden. One year ago, after he found it in his bag that was returned to him when he recovered, he decided to hid it, even from him. Every night he felt tempted to read it but he had promised himself that he’ll be strong, that some else needed him now and he has to do his best and no let himself get depressed again. However, the news had opened wounds he had tried to forget and still couldn’t. Maybe never will. Trying to calm down his frantic heart and to stop the already falling tears he read it again.
Dear love,
If you’re reading this then you’re finally safe, miles of distance apart from me but alive, and that’s the most I can do for you. I wish I could do more, I wish I could run away with you and find our own place where we would grow old together; but we know it’s impossible, they would never allow it and don’t matter where will go, they would find us, and when that happens I wouldn’t be able to protect you anymore. So let me do it now that I still can.
For me having your love was the blessing of my life, no one would ever come close to what I feel for you. Never, be sure of that. However, I have to let you go my love. My heart is ripping apart as I write these words, because I know this is our goodbye.
I want you to start anew, to make friends and to love again. Yes, my love, I want you to love, that is my selfish wish. If you do that I won’t feel like a bastard that crushed your heart and left you empty. You’re such a precious man that deserves to be loved and treasured immensely, and it kills me not being the one doing it. So, put our memories in a corner of your heart and only look at them from time to time with a fond smile in your face. No cries or tears, just a simple smile for an old friend.
I’ll stay here and be a good son, maybe you’d heard of me. I’ll give my best effort so what you hear will make you proud, because you made of me a better person, a better man.
I want to say more, but time is short, so can I say it one last time?
I love you.
S.
When he finished he had to cover his mouth to control his cries. He had lost him, he definitely lost him. His prince was getting married to some woman fitted to be the next queen. A woman that would gave him the heirs a kingdom demands and who would share his bed every night. He had lost him now. No, he shook his head furiously, he lost him the day they found out, and this wedding just makes the end more definitely. The letter in his hand was just a formality of what they knew but didn’t want to accept. Sho was at the end the braver one, he thought bitterly.
His breathing was evening when someone knocked at his door. “Kazunari, open the door. I need to talk to you” His cousin asked in a low voice
He did it immediately, so used to obey.
Jun looked a little perturbed “I think we ha-” he stopped when he saw Nino’s tear-tainted face “what’s wrong?” he asked quickly.
Kazunari tried to hide his remain tears but it was already too late. He saw Jun gazing at the letter on the bed. Before he had time to take it, Jun reached for it, but he didn’t read it, he just look over it once and gave it to him “I guess it can’t be delay it anymore” his cousin told him “It’s time I know how much I trust me” and uncertainly, as Kazunari never saw him before, he sat on the bed, motioning for the smaller man to do the same.
Without thinking too much he responded “I trust you, I really do”. Letting his tears flow again he continued “I fell in love with a man. I was just a servant and he… he was prominent. Can-can I keep the name to myself?” he looked at Jun, pleading with his eyes; his cousin nodded “He loved me too and we kept it a secret, until his father found out and I ended in a dungeon... But he managed to help me escape and sent me away, so far that I got here… where you found me” When he finished telling this short version of his story, Nino felt his muscles relaxing and the burden in his chest more lightening. However, he was still afraid of Jun’s reaction.
“What’s your name?” was Jun first question after hearing it all.
Nino looked up again “N-nino” he stuttered “I mean Ninomiya Seiji, that’s my name, but they called me Nino”
“Ninomiya Seiji” Jun repeated it as if trying the words “Nino… so that’s all?”
He gasped in surprise “I- you… you don’t feel disgusted?”
Jun frowned “Disgusted? Why would I? Falling in love is not a crime in my book” he asserted firmly, making his cousin smile in appreciation and relief.
“Can I ask you something?”
Jun assented and Kazunari finally asked what was his bugging him since he met the lord “Why you picked me? I mean, why are you doing all this?”
Jun let out a huge sigh and Kazunari saw the sadness heavy on his eyes “It’s complicated. At first it was only a tragic coincidence. I think no one had told you about the real Kazunari”
Nino opened his eyes big, there was a real Kazunari?
“Kazunari and I were very close, like brothers, we used to have so much fun playing around and competing against each other. It was in that mood that I dared him to a race. He didn’t want to but I pushed him to accept it. I ride my horse leaving him behind, feeling like I won when in reality…” he paused “when I came back the same road I saw his horse running away, Kazunari was not on it. I found him not so far away, he was in so much pain but I couldn’t do anything to help him, he died in my arms there… in the place where I found you that rainy day” Jun was pouring his heart out, letting the slow tears show his deepest remorse, even if he didn’t say it Kazunari could see the guilt, still a heavy weight in his heart, so he took his hands and tried to gave him the same encouragement he gave him under the table; it’s okay, I’m here.
Without thinking too much about it, Kazunari leaned his head on his cousin’s shoulder, still holding tight on his hands. They stayed in that position for several minutes, letting the pain go and holding onto each other’s with only a touch of hands. It was enough in that moment... they were enough.
It was Jun who broke the comfortable silence “Kazunari?”
“Uhm?”
“Can I sleep here tonight?” Jun asked in a soft voice.
The younger man let go of his place on his cousin’s shoulder, blinked twice and then let go of his hands to walk around the bed and pulling the covers away he laid there. His cousin understood the action and after blowing the candles followed Kazunari, lying next to him face to face. He covered them both and stayed in that position, soft breathing in the darkness of the room.
After a moment Jun cleared his throat “I must confess something” Kazunari stayed quiet just listening “I read your letter before, it was with your belongings and when I brought you-”
“And you still let me stay?”
Jun nodded even if couldn’t be seen in the dark “I want you to know something… Kazunari, my real cousin, he was the reason why I brought you here but… he’s not the reason I asked you to live with me. At first I thought it was my wish of wanting a family, but now I know it’s more than that”
“I don’t follow”
The older man made a pause, deciding still if this was the right time “Do you want to know why I knocked on your door tonight?”
For the first time Kazunari noticed that it was indeed weird.
“The King is concerned, people in the city are talking about you and well… it’s not good. They think that you somehow had found a way to manipulate me or something, and that your origin should be investigate it”
“That’s why the King is here” Kazunari realized.
“Yes, he wanted to make sure. He knows now that’s not true and he would stop the rumors, he promised me. I came to tell you so you’ll be more careful… Anyway, what stroke me was something the king said”
“What?”
Jun talked lower, almost in a whisper “He says I look happier… and he thinks it’s because of you”
“M-me?”
“And he’s right, I’m happy, after a long time I can say that I found someone that I want to protect with all I got” Jun took a deep breath “Kazunari, I love you”
He didn’t know what to say, he could only felt his stomach fluttering and his heart beating faster, signs he recognized but refused to acknowledge. He was just healing of a broken heart; he couldn’t think of somebody else in this moment. On the other hand this was Jun, and the thought of hurting him was like a punishment to him “I-I-”
“It’s okay, you don’t have to answer me. I don’t expect you to, I just wanted to let it out of my chest… I’m sorry if I scared you”
“You- you didn’t scare me. I mean, it’s just-” he sighed “I never imagined that you-”
“Let’s not talk about it anymore, okay?” Jun interrupted him “Let’s just sleep, I don’t want you to act different around me, promise me you won’t” Jun pleaded
“I promise” Kazunari whispered softly, wanting to do say more but he wasn’t emotionally ready.
During his conversation they had been drawing closer to each other and at the time they were almost in a cuddle position. “Good night, Kazunari” Jun whispered
“Good night, Jun” Kazunari replied, enjoying the warm that irradiates Jun’s body. With closed eyes he leaned on his chest and seconds later he felt Jun’s arms holding him by the waist. It felt right, but there was no rush; they made a silent pact to let things flow naturally and not let anything destroy what they already have, and with that resolution the cousins felt in a pleasant dream.
The King left two days after and at the moment of his departure Kazunari felt the amused stares King Ohno threw at Jun. At some point of the farewell, the King pulled him apart “Take care of him, Kazunari” was his request. He reacted with a nod and a smile, fighting the blush that was spreading over his face and that made the King laugh. He didn’t hear what the King told Jun, but he assumed it was something embarrassing for the way Jun’s cheeks colored red and his eyes seemed to pop out of his orbs; it was really funny.
The next time they were alone he couldn’t help asking “Jun, aren’t you worry? About what they say?” he mumbled, feeling guilty for causing the lord so many inconvenient.
“I only care what the people I love thinks” Jun stated looking directly at him “And as we have the King´s support they will stop. He jokes about me being scary but let me tell you something, King Ohno is someone you don’t want to have as your enemy, he would crash you like the devil himself”
His cousin found that hard to believe, but if Jun says so it must be true. He only hopes to never get on the wrong side to the King.
*
Months passed and Sho was married now, he knew it for the letter the King sent. It was a beautiful wedding and the royal couple looked very much in love. Kazu wanted to believe that, his heart prayed every night for Sho to achieve some form of happiness. He did it no longer with tears but with a soft smile, while he treasured the fond memories his first love gave to him.
He also added in his prays the two brothers that helped him get away, hoping life had found a way to pay their kindness as he was too far to do something for them.
One day, Kazu and Jun were practically locked inside the house because of the heavy rain that didn’t seem to stop. It was too cold and all the fire places had to been turned on. When Kazunari saw Touma carrying a tray with hot tea upstairs, he frowned in worry. “Is that for my cousin?” he asked
“Yes, the lord doesn’t feel so good today, maybe he’ll get a cold”
The younger man hummed, he hated the idea of Jun to getting sick, so he walked towards Touma and took the tray from him “I’ll take it myself, thank you Touma”
The butler only nodded and left with an understanding smile. The past months the cousin had gotten closer at everyone’s eyes. Strangely, they were no sneaking going around, only gratefulness for the good mood Lord Matsumoto ported every day.
He didn’t knock and with uttered care entered Jun’s bedroom. His cousin was sleeping, so he let the tray on the nightstand and gently patted the lord´s shoulder “Jun… Jun, wake up”
The lord opened slowly his eyes, blinking a few seconds to later grin at the intruder, sitting up “Kazu, why are you here?”
“You have to drink this lemon tea, Jun; it would help you feel better” he said while putting his small hand on Jun’s forehead “Good, no fever” and then pushing the cup to the lord’s hands.
“I just felt a little tired, it’s nothing” the taller man said although his cheeks were a little flushed, but it was definitely fault of Kazunari’s presence in his room.
“You can never be too careful” said the younger sitting on one side of the bed,
“Such a worrywart” Jun teased before his first sip.
“I learned from the best” he replied with a smirk on his face making Jun blush in shame. The last time Kazu got sick it was just a slight cold, but Jun put everyone in the house and the doctor in red code alert. Even King Ohno, miles away had found out of Kazunari’s condition and sent a long letter offering the help of the royal physician and his best regards.
They stayed in silence until Jun finished the tea “Happy now?” he asked showing the empty cup to his cousin and leaving it on the tray.
Kazu nodded “Yes, I’m happy” he said beaming brightly. He truly was; he felt blessed for having crossed paths with Jun, the peace and sense of belonging the lord gives him is something he never knew of, not even in Kastra. Not even with Sho. But there was something more he felt grateful for, and that was Jun’s love. He could feel it every second of every day; it had reached to him so strong and fast that he feels dizzy with only Jun’s smell or touch.
Maybe the secret meaning reached the lord, or it was a natural instinct, but the older man couldn’t help himself to lean close to Kazu’s beautiful face and close the distance between their mouths. Kazunari responded the kiss immediately, his arms wrapping around Jun’s neck to pull him closer and made the kiss more passionate. “Kazu” Jun whispered hotly when they had to pull apart to take some necessary air, only to be lip-locked again a second later. By his part, Kazu moved from his sitting position on the edge of the bed to climb and sit on Jun’s lap, straddling the lord. The feeling of Jun’s hands caressing his back and sliding down to his ass lighting all his senses and making him moan inside Jun’s delicious mouth. The tongues played freely with each other, tasting new flavors that accentuated the desire to be united as one.
“Jun~” Kazu moaned when the other started kissing a trail down his neck, “Jun, take this off” he demanded gripping the lord’s shirt. Jun looked hesitant to pull apart, too engrossed in exploring Kazu’s long white neck. But when the younger man found a way into his shirt and started teasing his nipples, he quickly removed the offending piece of fabric to feel more of those cute hands. Garment by garment the clothes were falling to the floor, leaving the lovers butt naked gazing at each other for the first time, taking in every little detail.
Jun managed to roll them over so Kazu was under him, skin touching in delicious friction, and groins rotating to bring them more pleasure. The older man could get enough of that white milky skin, so he touched, kissed and bitted wherever he could; while Kazu writhen frantically for all the attention “God… Kazu you’re so sexy” he groaned, enjoying the view that was his lover.
“Jun~” Kazunari called for him “Jun, take me” he asked in a soft innocent voice that may look unfitted for what they were doing but that tone vanished all Jun´s self-restrain. Either way, the lord asked “Are you sure?” concern rising in his heart for he didn’t have any experience with men. Kazu kissed him to encourage his lover and then signaled at a hand cream in his dressing table and Jun went to fetch it. When he turned to the bed again, Kazu was stroking his hard member while moaning Jun’s name; as if pull by and invisible force he kneeled at his feet and replaced Kazu’s hands with his own. Two strokes and he leaned to lick the oozing pre-cum at the tip, making his lover cried louder. It tasted salty, but it was Kazu’s and that made the flavor so rich and unique and he swore he wouldn’t let anyone else to have that privilege. He continued his way down, licking the shaft all the way to the balls and then going back up to end with a suck on the tip. He continued this way for a while until he felt more adventurous to take more of the beautiful cock in his mouth, relaxing his throat as much as he could. He was rewarded with a high-pitch cry from Kazu that made his own member twitch; he only stopped when Kazunari pulled at his hair.
Kazu was panting hard as he pushed Jun away; he knew it had to be done to get what he really wanted. Taking the abandoned bottle, he poured the lotion on his fingers and started playing with his hole. With open legs he pushed the first digit in containing a scream; after all it was so long ago the last time he did something like this. He forced himself to relax to give Jun a good show. The lord was in a trance following the movements of his hand with darkening eyes and open mouth. Then there were two fingers and Kazu started to groan shamelessly, making the lord curious, who with a trembling hand approached the twitching hole and inserted his long middle finger to join the stubby ones of his cousin. Kazu’s head twisted back “Jun~” he cried loud as the lord reached his spot “Yes~, there”
Matsumoto knew he did something good so he continued his movements, finger fucking Kazu’s ass, until the smaller man yelled for him to stop. Jun was at his limit, so he lined himself to the waiting hole and pushed his hard cock inside, inch by inch, gasping at the heat and oh so delicious pressure of Kazu´s tight ring of muscles. When he was fully in, he couldn’t stop anymore and started thrusting frantically not giving the other man a moment to breath. But Kazu didn’t need much, he had enjoyed a blowjob, then his spot had been teased by Jun’s fingers and now he could feel that beautiful cock filling him, making him cry for more while his heart felt like exploding. He surrounded Jun’s slim waist with his legs, forcing him to go deeper until a change of angle touched that place makes him see white. “Jun!... oh fuck… so good~… Fuck!” he couldn’t stop cursing and gripping tightly to his lovers arms he could almost taste his orgasm.
The lord never thought that being with Kazu this way could be so glorious, it was really out of this world. When he leaned down to get a kiss he saw his lover’s face twisting in pure pleasure so he kept hitting that spot mercilessly, until both got lost in the fire that was their love making.
Kazunari barely got the chance to touch himself and he was already spilling his seamen between them, a load scream of “Jun!” on his lips. The lord groaned loudly at the extra pressure on his cock and with two more thrusts he filled the smaller man’s ass.
Breathing was a hard task, but the sensations around them were heaven; the smell of sex was all around them, making them proud of what they achieved in their first time together. They laughed, still basking in aftershocks of such a great orgasm; Jun’s face was full of life as he looked at his lover “I love you Ninomiya Seiji”
Kazunari shook his head “I’m Matsumoto Kazunari” he told him resolutely “The boy named Nino died a long time ago… but there’s a man here” he signaled to himself “that loves Matsumoto Jun very much. So much that is feels like a dream” he beamed with sparkling eyes.
Jun couldn’t help to drop kisses all over Kazu’s face, still over and inside him “I love you, Kazu”
“I love you too Jun” Kazu responded, caressing his cousin’s cheeks.
Jun kissed him deeply, his heart filled with so much love for this once stranger that came into his life an made him enjoy life again. Love was no longer his secret wish, it was now a reality drawn with light brown eyes.
And the man Kazunari learned to let go; even if his first love didn’t had a happy ending he´ll forever keep the memories of the short time they had, and treasured them for they lead him to his Jun. He would protect their love with all he has and he knows Jun would do the same. They are a family, had been for a long time and always will.
Locked in a tight embrace the lovers drifted to sleep, with silent promises that would lead them to a bright future. The formal servant lost a love and the place he lived. But his fortune had provided him a new love and a home that would be theirs roof until death takes him away. Most possible, when his hair is white and death itself would be the gate to encounter his Jun again. And then, they’ll be together again… and again.
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This fic took me a week, I can't believe I was so slow...
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