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so i don't post often for numerous reasons,among those, no one reads this, and well, most of the things in my life these days are exceptionally personal and private and i learned the rather hard way that those things should not be put here....but in the mood for writing, and really a place to reflect or lay out several ideas, thoughts and possibilities floating in my overfilled, emotionally drained mind, I decided to venture here....
this time next week, I will have been with the same person for three months...to be quite honest he isn't just anyone......he's the most amazing person I have ever met in my life, someone who has completely changed the way i see the world, love, myself-among other things.....I could continue to rave forever over his attributes, the way he makes me feel, or numerous other things, however, this isn't the place..certain things, issues, feelings, deserve to remain private, in the way that a place like here could never maintain or aspire to maintain.....
this time next week I will have taken my last exam.....and will be finished with the semester from hell....this semester has in so many ways been the hardest one i have ever contemplated the undertaking of, and then undertook...it has left me physically exhausted, emotionally drained, and mentally thankful for the supports in my life.....
two weeks from now, well by the 1st of the month, i very well may no longer live at home, while this is in some ways a choice of mine, in many ways it is not, and that fact alone disappoints me, I always expected better terms, then again many would argue I always expected alot of things, some of which i recieved, others which i didn't and won't, some which i hope are still on their way....
in exactly twenty three days I will be going to a bed and breakfast for the very first time....a lovely room, at a lovely place where no one will be able to find us, where i can relax, rejuvenate, re-strategize and snowshoe...yes snow shoe......and hopefully will return a happier, healthier person ready to tackle the world, and ignorant individuals views and perspectives on my life, feelings, and well stuff...yes stuff, we will leave it at that.....I cannot wait for twenty three days from now, I need that day, and the possible addition of another to it horribly.....i need to be unreachable, untouchable and well out of sight......yesh we be going undercover......
at the end of this week my application for tulane university will be being sent off most hopefully and with it my prayers, hopes and wishes to be a part of something so big, so important, so dynamic and integral that would be such an amazing experience which i feel would completely change me in a way that nothing else could....and teach me about people, myself and the social process called life in general.......
now i have to return to studying for my finals of which i have three this week and a regular exam tomorrow......
good luck to everyone in their finals, lifes.....and well adventures......until next time....
this time next week, I will have been with the same person for three months...to be quite honest he isn't just anyone......he's the most amazing person I have ever met in my life, someone who has completely changed the way i see the world, love, myself-among other things.....I could continue to rave forever over his attributes, the way he makes me feel, or numerous other things, however, this isn't the place..certain things, issues, feelings, deserve to remain private, in the way that a place like here could never maintain or aspire to maintain.....
this time next week I will have taken my last exam.....and will be finished with the semester from hell....this semester has in so many ways been the hardest one i have ever contemplated the undertaking of, and then undertook...it has left me physically exhausted, emotionally drained, and mentally thankful for the supports in my life.....
two weeks from now, well by the 1st of the month, i very well may no longer live at home, while this is in some ways a choice of mine, in many ways it is not, and that fact alone disappoints me, I always expected better terms, then again many would argue I always expected alot of things, some of which i recieved, others which i didn't and won't, some which i hope are still on their way....
in exactly twenty three days I will be going to a bed and breakfast for the very first time....a lovely room, at a lovely place where no one will be able to find us, where i can relax, rejuvenate, re-strategize and snowshoe...yes snow shoe......and hopefully will return a happier, healthier person ready to tackle the world, and ignorant individuals views and perspectives on my life, feelings, and well stuff...yes stuff, we will leave it at that.....I cannot wait for twenty three days from now, I need that day, and the possible addition of another to it horribly.....i need to be unreachable, untouchable and well out of sight......yesh we be going undercover......
at the end of this week my application for tulane university will be being sent off most hopefully and with it my prayers, hopes and wishes to be a part of something so big, so important, so dynamic and integral that would be such an amazing experience which i feel would completely change me in a way that nothing else could....and teach me about people, myself and the social process called life in general.......
now i have to return to studying for my finals of which i have three this week and a regular exam tomorrow......
good luck to everyone in their finals, lifes.....and well adventures......until next time....