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have i mentioned how impossible my parents can be? i love them to death i really do..but there is no making them happy......they don't want me meeting anyone online anymore.....personally i don't understand what the difference is....i can meet psychos in person or through the internet just as easily......i've proven that one well the meeting psycho's in person thing......i mean i know that they just want me to be happy, and they want me to meet someone who "deserves me" but i truly wish they would let me be the decider of that..then again....i don't even know what i want.....not anymore....half of me wants to stop doing the dating thing....i enjoyed it for the month....but even though i ended it i still hate how it ended and that its ended.....i miss him......so half of me would like to just say lets work on school and work and my internship...its really not all that hard to keep busy that way...that and hanging out with maria and jen and them......
the other part of me really liked having someone....just to talk to, and cuddle......i miss cuddling.....in my head the night that really sticks out and makes me miss well him was the night i met his friends, we made dinner, and watched videos.....i really enjoyed going out with his sister and her fiance as well.....i guess i just about enjoyed it all....so i guess its safe to say i miss it....but oh well....thats done....so part of me wonders what i'm doing now.....am i looking for another someone? i don't know....i guess it'll be whatever it will be right? i think thats the best way to let things happen...if they happen with a certain someone or any someone they happen
off the more deeply personal stuff...which i know no one is going to read anyways..cuz no one but jess really reads this...well replies at any rate.....i set up my second internship for the summer..its going to be with cps which i look foward..its suppose to be excellent for developing interviewing skills and documentation skills...i have the documentation skills but interviewing is another story....i'll also be making a alot of phone calls making contacts and such..as well as home visits and follow ups.....its kind of scary.....i'm excited but nervous....i mean i can remember the internships where you just watched and now....now you learn what the people do...and slowly start to actually do it....yeah i know its part of growing up......just new to me..well new in general......i start may 23 which means i can still go to allegany for the weekend which is great.....i'll really need the weekend.....i've also gotta look at scheduling cedar point for after the internship ends and before school begins....that way i'll have some kind of break....i need to talk to my boss today about getting a saturday day schedule as well so i can be able to go out friday saturday and sunday nights if i want to.....
lots of stuff to do....now lets see if i can keep myself busy...later
the other part of me really liked having someone....just to talk to, and cuddle......i miss cuddling.....in my head the night that really sticks out and makes me miss well him was the night i met his friends, we made dinner, and watched videos.....i really enjoyed going out with his sister and her fiance as well.....i guess i just about enjoyed it all....so i guess its safe to say i miss it....but oh well....thats done....so part of me wonders what i'm doing now.....am i looking for another someone? i don't know....i guess it'll be whatever it will be right? i think thats the best way to let things happen...if they happen with a certain someone or any someone they happen
off the more deeply personal stuff...which i know no one is going to read anyways..cuz no one but jess really reads this...well replies at any rate.....i set up my second internship for the summer..its going to be with cps which i look foward..its suppose to be excellent for developing interviewing skills and documentation skills...i have the documentation skills but interviewing is another story....i'll also be making a alot of phone calls making contacts and such..as well as home visits and follow ups.....its kind of scary.....i'm excited but nervous....i mean i can remember the internships where you just watched and now....now you learn what the people do...and slowly start to actually do it....yeah i know its part of growing up......just new to me..well new in general......i start may 23 which means i can still go to allegany for the weekend which is great.....i'll really need the weekend.....i've also gotta look at scheduling cedar point for after the internship ends and before school begins....that way i'll have some kind of break....i need to talk to my boss today about getting a saturday day schedule as well so i can be able to go out friday saturday and sunday nights if i want to.....
lots of stuff to do....now lets see if i can keep myself busy...later