thoughts
econometrics is running and ruining my life. i understand that this is an extremely usefull class, perhaps the most necessary of all the class i've taken in college but i can't describe the feeling. it's not that i hate it, it just gives me nightmares, literally.
senioritis, along with law schools, are definitely not helping. i cannot concentrate because i cannot get myself to care. i know my fall grades are still important for some schools (and probably for my top choice school) but it's like somehow, a part of my mind doesn't grasp WHY i still need to be in school. it all just seems so pointless, the tests, the papers, the debates about god and morality. i am sick of learning theories, taking philosophy classes that are nothing but empty, completely pointless talk. perhaps a sign of aging is when you get impatient (though i guess one could argue the oppposite..). in a way, it shocks me. i used to love philosophy. i remember so many night long conversations about some abstract philosophy, some random thought experiment. now, i couldnt' care less. all those years of thinking so much has perhaps finally caught up to me. i am tired, i am jaded, i want to act now.
next semester, i really hope i can get a full time job somewhere, almost anywhere. i don't care if it's glamorous. i only have to take one class, i need money, and i need to get away from this academic environment. don't get me wrong though, i think i have a lot to learn. i am more excited than ever about law school. Reading Duke's viewbook made me so want to be there, doing the clinic programs. liberal arts education stops here and i welcome specialization.
i am also just so sick of georgetown/DC. i need a new place, new faces, i need to feel lost again, and discover the city myself. i miss france. i missing feeling like every corner i turned, every direction i turned my eyes, i was discovering a new world and that made it, in a way, mine. so i guess it would take a hell of a lot for my to accept georgetown's offer of admission. by a lot, i mean something like full tuition but we all know that gtown is dirt poor so that's not going to happen. this is probably why i was so excited about duke last night. my first ticket out of DC.
senioritis, along with law schools, are definitely not helping. i cannot concentrate because i cannot get myself to care. i know my fall grades are still important for some schools (and probably for my top choice school) but it's like somehow, a part of my mind doesn't grasp WHY i still need to be in school. it all just seems so pointless, the tests, the papers, the debates about god and morality. i am sick of learning theories, taking philosophy classes that are nothing but empty, completely pointless talk. perhaps a sign of aging is when you get impatient (though i guess one could argue the oppposite..). in a way, it shocks me. i used to love philosophy. i remember so many night long conversations about some abstract philosophy, some random thought experiment. now, i couldnt' care less. all those years of thinking so much has perhaps finally caught up to me. i am tired, i am jaded, i want to act now.
next semester, i really hope i can get a full time job somewhere, almost anywhere. i don't care if it's glamorous. i only have to take one class, i need money, and i need to get away from this academic environment. don't get me wrong though, i think i have a lot to learn. i am more excited than ever about law school. Reading Duke's viewbook made me so want to be there, doing the clinic programs. liberal arts education stops here and i welcome specialization.
i am also just so sick of georgetown/DC. i need a new place, new faces, i need to feel lost again, and discover the city myself. i miss france. i missing feeling like every corner i turned, every direction i turned my eyes, i was discovering a new world and that made it, in a way, mine. so i guess it would take a hell of a lot for my to accept georgetown's offer of admission. by a lot, i mean something like full tuition but we all know that gtown is dirt poor so that's not going to happen. this is probably why i was so excited about duke last night. my first ticket out of DC.