"You are going to die....everyone dies eventually" ~Bruce Willis
Can anyone tell me what movie that is from?
if you can I might be inclined to give you a piece of candy...then again maybe not.
I really would like to know how many people are going to attend my funeral. I know a morbid thought, but its something I wonder. Really how many people are going to care, or maybe, how many of you will still be around, or how many of you will still know me, and who are the new people I am going to meet. And will I impact their lives enough for them to come to my funeral or not? Probably not many. Though now that I think about it do people that are cremated really have funerals? Well I don't care I am going to have one. But instead of burying me you all can watch my ashes scatter....maybe even some of them will get stuck in the fibers of your clothes and you can carry me around with you always, until you die. Cause you are all going to die...eventually.
as my ashes scatter towards the vast openess we call sky what memories will you have of me? Will they be happy ones...or will you remember why you hated me? I wonder.
and as my ashes continue to pollute the air, what will you all be thinking...will you even care and then back again to will you even attend...will you still know me by then...
Then while thinking about all this, then I must think about WHEN am I going to actually go and meet my maker, and will I actually even have a chance at spending all eternity in heaven, or because of my mishaps and shortcomings will I be denied. Even though I know I am saved, there is still part of me that feels I am not good enough. Why should God want me...all I did for a good 6 years is tell people He didn't exist, tell people I was an atheist cause I thought that was cool...for 6 years I denied him, why should I feel that he should not deny me?
I guess I am in just one of my moods, yet this is one I haven't been able to shake. Carissa-I need to go to church =) I need to be there. And I need a good girls night out if anyone is interested in partaking in such an event...
I am just so lazy. Or I guess I am not, cause I have gotten alot of jewelry done, I just can't get motivated to do anything school related. After this morning, i just feel like everything is a big waste of time. I am just over it. I am over the teachers, the homework (crap work), the drama, and the people. I just can't stand it anymore.
I feel useless, unloved, used, abused, and forgotten, but no one cares so why should I?
LP
if you can I might be inclined to give you a piece of candy...then again maybe not.
I really would like to know how many people are going to attend my funeral. I know a morbid thought, but its something I wonder. Really how many people are going to care, or maybe, how many of you will still be around, or how many of you will still know me, and who are the new people I am going to meet. And will I impact their lives enough for them to come to my funeral or not? Probably not many. Though now that I think about it do people that are cremated really have funerals? Well I don't care I am going to have one. But instead of burying me you all can watch my ashes scatter....maybe even some of them will get stuck in the fibers of your clothes and you can carry me around with you always, until you die. Cause you are all going to die...eventually.
as my ashes scatter towards the vast openess we call sky what memories will you have of me? Will they be happy ones...or will you remember why you hated me? I wonder.
and as my ashes continue to pollute the air, what will you all be thinking...will you even care and then back again to will you even attend...will you still know me by then...
Then while thinking about all this, then I must think about WHEN am I going to actually go and meet my maker, and will I actually even have a chance at spending all eternity in heaven, or because of my mishaps and shortcomings will I be denied. Even though I know I am saved, there is still part of me that feels I am not good enough. Why should God want me...all I did for a good 6 years is tell people He didn't exist, tell people I was an atheist cause I thought that was cool...for 6 years I denied him, why should I feel that he should not deny me?
I guess I am in just one of my moods, yet this is one I haven't been able to shake. Carissa-I need to go to church =) I need to be there. And I need a good girls night out if anyone is interested in partaking in such an event...
I am just so lazy. Or I guess I am not, cause I have gotten alot of jewelry done, I just can't get motivated to do anything school related. After this morning, i just feel like everything is a big waste of time. I am just over it. I am over the teachers, the homework (crap work), the drama, and the people. I just can't stand it anymore.
I feel useless, unloved, used, abused, and forgotten, but no one cares so why should I?
LP