CLEAR LIQUOR &CLOUDY EYE
My eye is getting bad again. I'm not sure if it goes with my mood but sometimes I feel so tired and angry at myself and it gets so itchy that I fuck it up again by agressively rubbing it until it is sore, red, open, swollen.
Rei bought me a bar of Hershey's white chocolate which I was so grateful for(because I was felt seriously bad on Thursday, so bad that I missed social service - see entry I'M NOT BIGGER THAN LIFE); and I shared it with Stephen during TOK. You've never seen a happier boy than Stephen with a mouth full of chocolate, I swear it. Yesterday I played predator, I got a red Lacoste shirt out of it which I liked. It wasn't too sucky so I think it was worth it. YouJin &I were @Rachel's making the skirts for UN night. It was alright, tiring, but alright. Rachel is actually pretty nice. Strangely enough, her house was @George's old condo - the one he lived in before he moved. We had pizza @her's. It was a long day.
Today was a bit messy. First I had the usual SAT thing. That hot guy was in our class again but we didn't get to talk to him - hopefully he is still there next week! Afterwards Sara &I browsed for a bit then I went to N.H. &we got a soccer ball to play with @Dempsey field. I had been eager to play soccer, I remember loving it so. I barely remembered the feeling of running with the ball, but still enough to recall that it felt amazing. It was not as weird as I thought it'd be to be back there. But I felt nostalgic all the same in some ways. The path and been cut and the grass was not as unruly as the last time I had been there. In fact, there was a group of men cutting the grass there this very day. What a coinkydink. My nose bled &I hit my head on the ground because I was pushed. We got into a fight, I hit him pretty hard, I left in a taxi.
The taxi driver told me of how his wife wants to divorce him. How they have a son my age, how sometimes things don't work out, how he's known her since he was 19, how they have been married for 30 years.
We've made up now, because in some way, some how, the sympathy I felt for the taxi driver seemed to be a sign. I am such a fucked up person &the worst thing is that I know it &I don't think I can change.
Rei bought me a bar of Hershey's white chocolate which I was so grateful for(because I was felt seriously bad on Thursday, so bad that I missed social service - see entry I'M NOT BIGGER THAN LIFE); and I shared it with Stephen during TOK. You've never seen a happier boy than Stephen with a mouth full of chocolate, I swear it. Yesterday I played predator, I got a red Lacoste shirt out of it which I liked. It wasn't too sucky so I think it was worth it. YouJin &I were @Rachel's making the skirts for UN night. It was alright, tiring, but alright. Rachel is actually pretty nice. Strangely enough, her house was @George's old condo - the one he lived in before he moved. We had pizza @her's. It was a long day.
Today was a bit messy. First I had the usual SAT thing. That hot guy was in our class again but we didn't get to talk to him - hopefully he is still there next week! Afterwards Sara &I browsed for a bit then I went to N.H. &we got a soccer ball to play with @Dempsey field. I had been eager to play soccer, I remember loving it so. I barely remembered the feeling of running with the ball, but still enough to recall that it felt amazing. It was not as weird as I thought it'd be to be back there. But I felt nostalgic all the same in some ways. The path and been cut and the grass was not as unruly as the last time I had been there. In fact, there was a group of men cutting the grass there this very day. What a coinkydink. My nose bled &I hit my head on the ground because I was pushed. We got into a fight, I hit him pretty hard, I left in a taxi.
The taxi driver told me of how his wife wants to divorce him. How they have a son my age, how sometimes things don't work out, how he's known her since he was 19, how they have been married for 30 years.
We've made up now, because in some way, some how, the sympathy I felt for the taxi driver seemed to be a sign. I am such a fucked up person &the worst thing is that I know it &I don't think I can change.