Aug 17, 2004 21:30
ok so apparently i say "dude" a lot. fuck all of you. if i want to call you all dude, i damn will. its nothing like calling everyone hunny or darling. but i am trying to curb the "dudeness." i think perhaps i am watching big lebowski too much and turning into one of the dudes followers.
my bro, my cous, and one of adams friends are in town for the week. we have just been smoking like its going out of style. it reminds me of a few summers ago when i went home for a summer and smoked and made all that damn money and then spent it all. oh man, what a summer.
i am having the time of my life out here. well, almost, but who is trying to look at the negative. it is so damn beautiful here, i can't help but be appreciative i have this. who knows what will happen in the future, but for now, laine is content. laine is also about to get off work in 20 minutes, which will make me much more content. hells yeah, i am in a good space.
i have been thinking about chris a lot lately. how crazy that so many years later i am still thinking about him. he keeps calling me, and every time i talk to him i want to tell him everything. but i still don't, i just keep my cool. besides, better to have him see me again and fall for me, than me tell him i'm crazy and have been obsessed with him since i was 15.
luv you all!